[14] Martin Buber, I and Thou, 2nd ed., trans. Ronald Gregor Smith (New York: Charles Scribner's Sons, 1958), p. 9.
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A HEURISTIC CULMINATION
This chapter presents an application of the humanistic nursing practice theory over time and an outcome. The outcome represents my present conscious conceptualization of my personal theory of nursing. It has grown out of my nursing practice experience, my reflecting, relating, describing, and synthesizing. This is heuristic culmination of much mulling over my lived world of nursing.
ANGULAR VIEW: PRESENT PERSPECTIVE
In 1971 after a presentation on concept development I heard myself in a chatty response to the audience declare my unique theory of nursing. It was based in constructs that I had developed and conceptualized. Previously I had viewed these constructs only as distinct entities. My synthesis of them surprised me. This was the first time I conveyed them as my why, how, and what of nursing. This synthesis may have emerged as a sequence to my reexamination and reflection on each of these constructs in preparation for this 1971 presentation.[1] Now it became evident that their sequential evolvement had a logic that had come from my being without my awareness.
Since 1971 I have planned to reflect on these synthetic constructs to better understand how they relate to one another complementarily. Why? To further the development of these constructs and to state them as propositions. Statements of propositions are movement toward nursing theory. Theory is considered here as a conceptualized vision teased out of my knowing from my nursing experience.
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Like Elie Wiesel, the novelist and literary artist, I write to better understand and to attest to happenings. This chapter is the fruit of this endeavor.