I have hinted that my poor young mother did not look after me much. Also that the Ayah, who had a mother’s love and care for me, paid very little attention to my being tidy in person or dress, except when I was exhibited to “company.”
But my mother was dead. Ayah (after a terrible parting) was left behind in India. And from the time that I passed into Aunt Theresa’s charge, matters were quite changed.
I do remember the dresses I had then, and the keen interest I took in the subject of dress at a very early age. A very keen interest was taken in it by Aunt Theresa herself, by Aunt Theresa’s daughters, and by the ladies of Aunt Theresa’s acquaintance. I think I may say that it formed (at least one of) the principal subjects of conversation during all those working hours of the day which the ladies so freely sacrificed to each other. Mrs. Buller was truly kind, and I am sure that if I had depended in every way upon her, she would have given to my costume as much care as she bestowed upon that of her own daughters. But my parents had not been poor; there was no lack of money for my maintenance, and thus “no reason,” as Aunt Theresa said, why my clothes should not be “decent,” and “decent” with Aunt Theresa and her friends was a synonym for “fashionable.”
Thus my first black frock was such an improvement (in fashion) upon the pink silk one, as to deprive my deep mourning of much of its gloom. Mrs. (Colonel) St. Quentin could not refuse to lend one of her youngest little girl’s frocks as a copy, for “the poor little orphan”; and a bevy of ladies sat in consultation over it, for all Mrs. St. Quentin’s things were well worth copying.
“Keep a paper pattern, dear,” said Mrs. Minchin; “it will come in for the girls. Her things are always good.”
And Mrs. Buller kept a paper pattern.
I remember the dress quite clearly. It is fixed in my mind by an incident connected with it. It had six crape tucks, of which fact I was very proud, having heard a good deal said about it. The first time Mr. George came to our bungalow, after I had begun to wear it, I strutted up to him holding my skirt out, and my head up.
“Look at my black frock, Mr. George,” said I; “it has got six crape tucks.”
Matilda was most precocious in—at least—one way: she could repeat grown-up observations of wonderful length.
“It’s the best crape,” she said; “it won’t spot. Cut on the bias. They’re not real tucks though, Margery. They’re laid on; Mrs. Minchin said so.”