May 4. Writing by way of Vienna & Bussorah My Eliza.—this & Company took up the day.
5th. writing to Eliza.—& trying l’Extrait de Saturne upon myself.—(a french Nostrum)
6th. Dined out for the 1st. time—came home to enjoy a more harmonious evening wth. my Eliza, than I could expect at Soho Concert[[25]]—every Thing my dear Girl, has lost its former relish to me—& for thee eternally does it quicken! writing to thee over Land all day.
7. continue poorly, my dear!—but my blood warms every momt. I think of our future Scenes—so must grow strong upon the Idea—what shall I do upon the Reality?—O God!—
8th. employ’d in writing to my Dear all day—& in projecting happiness for her—tho in misery myself. O! I have undergone Eliza!—but the worst is over—(I hope)—so adieu to those Evils, & let me haste the happiness to come.