(About 1808, to Baron von Gleichenstein, by whom he thought himself
slighted.)
245. “You are living on a quiet sea, or already in the safe harbor; you do not feel the distress of a friend out in the raging storm,—or you must not feel it.”
(In 1811, to his friend Gleichenstein, when Beethoven was in love with
the Baron’s sister-in-law, Therese Malfatti.)
246. “I must have a confidant at my side lest life become a burden.”
(July 4, 1812, to Count Brunswick, whom he is urging to make a tour with
him, probably to Teplitz.)
247. “Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men. At my age I need a certain uniformity and equableness of life; can such exist in our relationship?”
(June 7, 1800 (?), to the “Immortal Beloved.”)
248. “O Providence! vouchsafe me one day of pure joy! Long has the echo of perfect felicity been absent from my heart. When O, when, O Thou Divine One, shall I feel it again in nature’s temple and man’s? Never? Ah! that would be too hard!”
(Conclusion of the Heiligenstadt Will.)