I had heard many stories of this kind, and they bored me, although there was one pleasing feature about them—almost every one spoke of their "first love" without boasting, or obscenity, and often so gently and sadly that I understood that the story of their first love was the best in their lives.
Laughing and shaking his head, my master exclaimed wonderingly:
"But that's the sort of thing you don't tell your wife; no, no! Well, there's no harm in it, but you never tell. That's a story—"
He was telling the story to himself, not to me. If he had been silent, I should have spoken. In that quietness and desolation one had to talk, or sing, or play on the harmonica, or one would fall into a heavy, eternal sleep in the midst of that dead town, drowned in gray, cold water.
"In the first place, don't marry too soon," he counseled me. "Marriage, brother, is a matter of the most stupendous importance. You can live where you like and how you like, according to your will. You can live in Persia as a Mahommedan; in Moscow as a man about town. You can arrange your life as you choose. You can give everything a trial. But a wife, brother, is like the weather—you can never rule her! You can't take a wife and throw her aside like an old boot."
His face changed. He gazed into the gray water with knitted brows, rubbing his prominent nose with his fingers, and muttered:
"Yes, brother, look before you leap. Let us suppose that you are beset on all sides, and still continue to stand firm; even then there is a special trap laid for each one of us."
We were now amongst the vegetation in the lake of Meshtcherski, which was fed by the Volga.
"Row softly," whispered my master, pointing his gun into the bushes. After he had shot a few lean woodcocks, he suggested:
"Let us go to Kunavin Street. I will spend the evening there, and you can go home and say that I am detained by the contractors."