“Of course I will have to get mother’s consent,” Polly agreed more quietly than any one had expected, “but I think when I write and tell her exactly how I feel she will do as I ask.”
It was now ten o’clock and Nan Graham rose first to make ready for bed. She was followed by Eleanor and Sylvia, as it was already an hour past their usual week-day bedtime, but Betty laid her hand quietly on Rose’s arm. “Please don’t go to your room yet,” she whispered, “I have something I want to talk to you about. It won’t matter if only Polly and Mollie stay with us.” She glanced expectantly at Esther, supposing of course that she would retire with the other girls, but instead Esther was sitting with her big, awkward hands clasped before her and such an utterly miserable expression on her plain face that Betty forgot her own problem and intended sacrifice.
“What on earth is the matter with you, Esther Clark?” she demanded a little indignantly. “Half an hour ago you looked as you usually do, and I am sure I have heard no one since say anything to hurt your feelings. Why, please, should you now look as if you had lost your last friend on earth?”
Esther laughed nervously. “Please don’t be angry, Betty, or Miss Dyer, or Polly, and don’t think I mean to be hateful or unaccommodating, but really I don’t think I can sing on the evening of our Christmas entertainment. I have been trying to make up my mind to tell you for days and days, that I know I shall simply break down and disgrace us all.”
“And since you heard that we were to have a famous woman as a member of our audience you are more sure than ever that you won’t be able to sing?” Polly questioned. Esther nodded silently, while Polly’s eyes gazed past her as though they were trying to solve some puzzle.
“It is odd, isn’t it,” she continued, speaking to all or to none of the little company. “Here I am with just a slight talent for acting, and perhaps not even that, dreaming and longing to have this Miss Adams’ criticism, even though I may break down when the time comes, and here is Esther with a really great gift liking to hide her light under a bushel. Oh me, oh my, and it’s a queer world, isn’t it?”
“Yes, but Esther isn’t going to hide her light this time, it’s too silly of her,” Betty rejoined. “She has that perfectly wonderful song that Dick got for her last summer and has been practicing it for months. Besides we have asked our funny old German, who rescued us in the storm, to play Esther’s accompaniment on his violin. He has practiced with her in town and is enraptured. Says Esther sings like a ‘liebe angel.’”
Esther rose slowly to her feet. “Of course if you really wish me to, Betty, with all you have done for me——”
But Betty gave her an affectionate push toward the bedroom door.
“Oh, go to bed, Esther, what I have done for you has nothing to do with your singing and certainly gives me no right to try to run you. It is only that I don’t mean you to take a back seat all your life if I can possibly shove you forward.”