"One," he continued, "there was power to them. Two, to attract attention. Three, this boy is an asshole."
I wrote, "Asshole," and drew a circle around the word. Then I wrote, "ok but it is me. so, fine."
A few minutes later Rama said, "Fake obvious things fool everybody." Then he said, "Humans are continually knocking on your door. As long as they are alive, they try and suck your power. You need to get strategic and learn to intensely dislike them. Cut them. Push them away—anything to get them to fuck off."
I wrote, "cold."
About an hour later, Rama had us watch The Adventures of Buckaroo Bonzai on the VCR. I sat several feet back from the group. After the movie Rama announced, "Someone is way off. Can anyone see who it is?"
The disciples glanced at me.
"Of course, you all know that it's Agni. Now what's the matter, baby?"
I told him that things in my life were not working out. I told him that I needed to try something new.
"If you wish to leave, please don't bring everyone else down."
"Sorry, Rama."