“Julian,” I said, “I can’t write to her. You need neither say that I’m a blackguard nor that you’re sorry for us both. At this present moment I’ve no more affection for Margaret than I have for this chair. When precisely I left off caring for her I don’t know. Why I ever thought I loved her I don’t know, either. But ever since I came to London all the love I did have for her has been ebbing away every day.”
“Had you met many people before you met her?” asked Julian slowly.
“No one that counted. Not a woman that counted, that’s to say. I am shy with women. I can talk to them in a sort of way, but I never seem able to get intimate. Margaret was different. She saved my life, and we spent the summer in Guernsey together.”
“And you seriously expected not to fall in love?” Julian laughed “My dear Jimmy, you ought to write a psychological novel.”
“Possibly. But, in the meantime, what am I to do?”
Julian stood up.
“She’s in love with you, I suppose?”
“Yes.”
He stood looking at me.
“Well, can’t you speak?” I said.