"Am I going to die?"

"You're pretty sick, son."

I laughed a little with my curdled belly. Too soon to answer, You're telling me. Nineteen-twelve. That was what I meant.

"But—will I die?"

His tender passion became tenderer still. "Would you be afraid to, son?"

"No."

"Do you believe in God?"

"Of course."

"Want to live—still?"

Still, he had said. He could see—what I could only feel.