The sad news of Rudolph's death reached Vienna on the morning of January 30. General consternation prevailed. In the afternoon one of the Emperor's aides-de-camp came to see if he could obtain more news from me.
I was scarcely able to speak. I had been told that the Prince of Coburg had assassinated my brother-in-law!
There were some charitable souls in Vienna and at Court who did not admit that Rudolph's affection for me was merely fraternal.
Ah, if one only realized to what jealousy and wickedness the highest are exposed!
After the death of the Crown Prince all kinds of stories and scandalous gossip were rife!
I told the aide-de-camp that I knew nothing beyond the tragic news of the death of Rudolph and Mary Vetsera, and that my husband, who had left that very morning at six o'clock to shoot at Meyerling, had not returned.
In the meantime I had seen one of Stéphanie's ladies-in-waiting, who had told me about the catastrophe. Mastering my emotions, I went to see my sister at the Hofburg.
I found her pale and silent, holding in her hand a letter whose secret must now be given to history.
This letter, which had just been discovered addressed to Stéphanie in Rudolph's private desk, announced his death. He had already resolved on this course when he spoke to me in the Prater. The letter commenced as follows:
"I take leave of life." It was too much for me to read that. The words were blurred by my tears. "Be happy in your own way," he said to his wife. And his last thought was of his child. "Take great care of your daughter. She is most dear to me. I leave you this duty." Unhappy child, who has had no father. I have often pitied her, and I pity her more than ever. She does not know what she has lost.