Arkwright felt a sudden, unreasonable fear of the circle of strong-featured, serene and confident men about him. They seemed to be making him the subject of a jest, to be enjoying something among themselves of which he was in ignorance, but which concerned him closely. He turned a white face toward Stanton.
“You don’t mean,” he began piteously, “that—that you are not going? Is that it—tell me—is that what you wanted to say?”
Stanton shifted in his chair and muttered some words between his lips, then turned toward Arkwright and spoke quite clearly and distinctly.
“I am very sorry, Mr. Arkwright,” he said, “but I am afraid I’ll have to disappoint you. Reasons I cannot now explain have arisen which make my going impossible—quite impossible,” he added firmly—“not only now, but later,” he went on quickly, as Arkwright was about to interrupt him.
Arkwright made no second attempt to speak. He felt the muscles of his face working and the tears coming to his eyes, and to hide his weakness he twisted in his chair and sat staring ahead of him with his back turned to the table. He heard Livingstone’s voice break the silence with some hurried question, and immediately his embarrassment was hidden in a murmur of answers and the moving of glasses as the men shifted in their chairs and the laughter and talk went on as briskly as before. Arkwright saw a sideboard before him and a servant arranging some silver on one of the shelves. He watched the man do this with a concentrated interest as though the dull, numbed feeling in his brain caught at the trifle in order to put off, as long as possible, the consideration of the truth.
And then beyond the sideboard and the tapestry on the wall above it, he saw the sun shining down upon the island of Cuba, he saw the royal palms waving and bending, the dusty columns of Spanish infantry crawling along the white roads and leaving blazing huts and smoking cane-fields in their wake; he saw skeletons of men and women seeking for food among the refuse of the street; he heard the order given to the firing squad, the splash of the bullets as they scattered the plaster on the prison wall, and he saw a kneeling figure pitch forward on its face, with a useless bandage tied across its sightless eyes.
Senator Stanton brought him back with a sharp shake of the shoulder. He had also turned his back on the others, and was leaning forward with his elbows on his knees. He spoke rapidly, and in a voice only slightly raised above a whisper.
“I am more than sorry, Arkwright,” he said earnestly. “You mustn’t blame me altogether. I have had a hard time of it this afternoon. I wanted to go. I really wanted to go. The thing appealed to me, it touched me, it seemed as if I owed it to myself to do it. But they were too many for me,” he added with a backward toss of his head toward the men around his table.
“If the papers had not told on me I could have got well away,” he went on in an eager tone, “but as soon as they read of it, they came here straight from their offices. You know who they are, don’t you?” he asked, and even in his earnestness there was an added touch of importance in his tone as he spoke the name of his party’s leader, of men who stood prominently in Wall Street and who were at the head of great trusts.
“You see how it is,” he said with a shrug of his shoulders. “They have enormous interests at stake. They said I would drag them into war, that I would disturb values, that the business interests of the country would suffer. I’m under obligations to most of them, they have advised me in financial matters, and they threatened—they threatened to make it unpleasant for me.” His voice hardened and he drew in his breath quickly, and laughed. “You wouldn’t understand if I were to tell you. It’s rather involved. And after all, they may be right, agitation may be bad for the country. And your party leader after all is your party leader, isn’t he, and if he says ‘no’ what are you to do? My sympathies are just as keen for these poor women and children as ever, but as these men say, ‘charity begins at home,’ and we mustn’t do anything to bring on war prices again, or to send stocks tumbling about our heads, must we?” He leaned back in his chair again and sighed. “Sympathy is an expensive luxury, I find,” he added.