“I knew she was young, of course, not much more than a child, and I knew she loved fun and good times, and all that, but—Why, she’d write about week-end parties, and how becoming her bathing-suit was, and what Tommy Flint said about her fox-trotting. Lord!” He writhed under the coverlet and ground his nails into his palms. “We marched through places where there wasn’t a shred of anything left for anybody. We saw old women hanging on to broken platters and empty bird-cages because it was all they had left—home, children, everything gone. And on top of that would come a letter telling how much she’d spent on an evening gown, and how Bob Wylie took them out to Riverdale and blew in a hundred and twenty dollars on the day’s trip. A hundred and twenty dollars! That would have bought a young ocean of milk over there for the refugee kids I saw starving.”
He jerked himself up suddenly and sat huddled over, his eyes kindling with a vision of purging the world. Sheila knew it was useless to stop him, so she propped him up with pillows and let him go on.
“And that wasn’t all. Between the lulls in the fighting they moved us along to a quiet sector, to freshen up, where we were so close to the German side that we could look into one of their captured villages. There we could see the French girls they’d carried off going out to work, saw them corralled at night like—” He broke off, hesitated, then went doggedly on. “With field-glasses we could see them plainly, the loads they had to lift and carry, the beatings they got, the look in their faces. Their shoulders were crooked, their backs bent from the long slaving. They were wraiths, most of them—and some with babies at their breasts. After I got back from seeing that, I found another letter from Clarisse. She said the girls just couldn’t buckle down to much Red Cross work; it was so hard to do anything much in summer. They’d no sooner get started than some one would say tennis or a swim. And I saw women dying over there—and bearing Boche babies!”
All the agony of soul that youth can compass was poured forth in those last words. The boy leaned back on his pillows, weary unto death with the hopelessness of it all. So Sheila let him lie for a while before she answered him.
“Do the boys want their girls to know the full horror of it all? I thought that was one of the things you were fighting for, to keep as much of it away from them as you could.”
The boy raised a hand in protest, but Sheila silenced him. “Wait a minute; it’s my turn to talk now. I know what’s in your mind. You think that Clarisse—and the girls like her—are showing unforgivable callousness and flippancy in the face of this world tragedy. Instead of becoming women as you have become men, they stay silly, unthinking, irresponsible creatures who dance and play and laugh while you fight and die. The contrast is too colossal; it all seems past remedy. Isn’t that so? Well, there’s another side, a side you haven’t thought of. The girls are giving you up. The little they know of life, as it is now, looks very overwhelming to them. Perhaps it frightens them. And what do frightened children do in the dark?”
The boy did not try to answer; he waited, tensely eager.
“Why, they sing; they laugh little short-breathed laughs; they tell stories to themselves of nonsensical things to reassure them. All the time they are trying not to think of what terrors the dark may hold; they are trying not to cry out for some one to come and sit with them. Some of our girls are doing a tremendous work. They meet trains at all hours of the day or night and feed the boys before they sail; they wait all day in the canteens until they’re ready to drop; they put in a lot more time, making comfort-kits, knitting, and rolling bandages, than they ever own to. And suppose they don’t grow dreadfully serious; isn’t it better that way? The girls are doing their bit as fast as they are learning how. It isn’t fair of the boys to judge them too soon. It isn’t fair of you to judge your Clarisse without giving her a chance.”
“You didn’t read those letters.”
“Letters! Most of us, when we write, keep back the things that really matter and skim off the surface of our lives to tell about. There may not be the sixteenth part of your girl in those letters.”