She moved her hand, and for a second her eyes, full of a tenderness such as he had never seen in them before, met his. The look drew him from his seat again, but she sent him back to it by an imperious gesture. “I said I would be candid,” she continued, “and I intend to be so, though until a few minutes ago I never thought that I should speak to you as I am doing.”
“You shall never repent it,” he answered fondly.
“I hope not,” she rejoined. But then she paused and was silent.
He sat waiting patiently for a while; but, as she still said nothing, he rose. “Laura,” he said.
“Yes, I know,” she answered, almost abruptly. “But candor does not come very easily, sir, under certain circumstances. Don’t you know you have made me afraid of you?”
He showed that he would have reassured her in the most convincing and practical manner. But, notwithstanding her words, she had regained her power and presence of mind, and she repelled him.
“Wait until you have heard what I have got to say,” she said. “It is this. I would not marry Mr. Lindo because he is a rector with a living and a position—not though he were six times a rector! But all the same I will not marry a curate! No,” she added in a lower tone, and with a glance which intoxicated him afresh—“not though he be you!”
He stood silent, looking down at her, waiting for more. Neither by word nor gesture did he express dissent. It is possible he already understood, and felt with her.
“To marry a curate,” she continued in a low voice, “is, for a girl such as I am, failure. I have held my head rather high, and I have stood by and seen other girls married. Therefore to marry a curate, after all, would be an ignominious failure. Are you very angry with me?” she continued quietly, “or do you understand?”
“I think I understand,” he answered, with just a tinge of bitterness in his tone.