James Thorold made him no answer. He was standing at the wide walnut table, turning over and over in his hands the letters which his secretary had left for his perusal. Finally, he opened one of them, the bulkiest. He scanned it for a moment, then flung it upon the floor. Then he began to pace the room till in his striding he struck his foot against the paper he had cast aside. He picked it up, tossing it toward Peter. The boy turned from his strained watching of his father’s face to read the letter. It was the official notification of the Senate’s confirmation of the President’s appointment of James Thorold as ambassador to the Court of St. Jerome.
“Why, father!” Incredulity heightened the boyishness in Peter’s tone. James Thorold wheeled around until he faced him. “Peter,” he said huskily, “there’s something you’ll have to know before I go to Forsland—if ever I go to Forsland. You’ll have to decide.” The boy shrank from the ominous cadence of the words. “Why, I can’t judge for you, dad,” he said awkwardly. “Our children are always our ultimate judges,” James Thorold said.
“I have sometimes wondered,” he went on, speaking to himself rather than to the puzzled boy, “how the disciples who met Christ but who did not go his way with him to the end felt when they heard he had died. I knew a great man once, Peter. I went his way for a little while, then I took my own. I saw them bring him, dead, over the way they have brought that boy to-day. I came down to the court-house that night, and there, just where that boy lies, Peter, I made a promise that I have not kept.”
Again he resumed his pacing, speaking as he went, sometimes in low tones, sometimes with tensity of voice, always as if urged by some force that was driving him from silence. The boy, leaning forward at the edge of the chair, watched his father through the first part of the story. Before the end came he turned away.
“You remember,” James Thorold began, his voice pleading patience, “that I’ve told you I came to Chicago from Ohio before the war? I was older than you then, Peter, but I was something of a hero-worshipper, too. Judge Adams was my hero in those troublous times of the fifties. I knew him only by sight for a long time, watching him go in and out of the big white house where he lived. After a time I came to know him. I was clerking in a coffee-importing house during the day and studying law at night. Judge Adams took me into his office. He took me among his friends. Abraham Lincoln was one of them.
“I remember the night I met Lincoln. Judge Adams had talked of him often. He had been talking of him that day. ‘Greatness,’ he had said, ‘is the holding of a great dream, not for yourself, but for others. Abraham Lincoln has the dream. He has heard the voice, and seen the vision, and he is climbing up to Sinai. You must meet him, James.’ That night I met him in the old white house.
“We were in the front parlor of the old house,” James Thorold continued, resetting the scene until his only listener knew that it was more real to him than the room through which he paced, “when some one said, ‘Mr. Lincoln.’ I looked up to see a tall, awkward man standing in the arched doorway. Other men have said that they had to know Lincoln a long time to feel his greatness. My shame is the greater that I felt his greatness on the instant when I met his eyes.
“There was talk of war that night. Lincoln did not join in it, I remember, although I do not recall what he said. But when he rose to go I went with him. We walked down the street past dooryards where lilacs were blooming, keeping together till we crossed the river. There our ways parted. I told him a little of what Judge Adams had said of him. He laughed at the praise, waving it away from himself. ‘It’s a good thought, though,’ he said, ‘a great dream for others. But we need more than the dreaming, my friend. When the time comes, will you be ready?’
“I held out my hand to him in pledge.
“My way home that night took me past the armory where the Zouaves, the boys whom Ellsworth trained, were drilling. You remember Ellsworth’s story, Peter? He was the first officer to die in the war.” The boy nodded solemnly, and the man went on. “With Abraham Lincoln’s voice ringing in my ears I enlisted.