| "Hadst thou stayed, I must have fled!" |
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| That is what the vision said. |
| In his chamber all alone, |
| Kneeling on the floor of stone, |
| Prayed the Monk in deep contrition |
| For his sins of indecision, |
| Prayed for greater self-denial |
| In temptation and in trial; |
| It was noonday by the dial, |
| And the Monk was all alone. |
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| Suddenly, as if it lightened, |
| An unwonted splendor brightened |
| All within him and without him |
| In that narrow cell of stone; |
| And he saw the blessed vision |
| Of our Lord, with light Elysian |
| Like a vesture wrapped about Him, |
| Like a garment round Him thrown. |
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| Not as crucified and slain |
| Not in agonies of pain, |
| Not with bleeding hands and feet, |
| Did the Monk his Master see; |
| But as in the village street, |
| In the house or harvest field, |
| Halt and lame and blind He healed, |
| When He walked in Galilee. |
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| In as attitude imploring, |
| Hands upon his bosom crossed, |
| Wondering, worshiping, adoring, |
| Knelt the Monk, in rapture lost, |
| Lord, he thought, in heaven that reignest, |
| Who am I that thus Thou deignest |
| To reveal Thyself to me? |
| Who am I, that from the center |
| Of Thy glory Thou shouldst enter |
| This poor cell, my guest to be? |
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| Then amid his exaltation, |
| Loud the convent bell appalling, |
| From its belfrey calling, calling, |
| Rang through court and corridor |
| With persistent iteration, |
| He had never heard before. |
| It was now the appointed hour |
| When alike in shine or shower, |
| Winter's cold or summer's heat, |
| To the convent portals came |
| All the blind and halt and lame, |
| All the beggars of the street, |
| For their daily dole of food |
| Dealt them by the brotherhood; |
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| And their almoner was he |
| Who upon his bended knees |
| Rapt in silent ecstasy |
| Of divinest self-surrender, |
| Saw the vision and the splendor. |
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| Deep distress and hesitation |
| Mingled with his adoration; |
| Should he go, or should he stay? |
| Should he leave the poor to wait |
| Hungry at the convent gate, |
| Till the vision passed away? |
| Should he slight his radiant guest, |
| Slight this visitant celestial |
| For a crowd of ragged, bestial |
| Beggars at the convent gate? |
| Would the vision there remain? |
| Would the vision come again? |
| Then a voice within his breast |
| Whispered audible and clear, |
| As if to the outward ear: |
| "Do thy duty; that is best; |
| Leave unto thy Lord the rest!" |
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| Straightway to his feet he started, |
| And with longing look intent |
| On the blessed vision bent, |
| Slowly from his cell departed, |
| Slowly on his errand went. |
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| At the gate the poor were waiting, |
| Looking through the iron grating, |
| With that terror in the eye |
| That is only seen in those |
| Who amid their wants and woes |
| Hear the sound of doors that close. |
| And of feet that pass them by: |
| Grown familiar with disfavor, |
| Grown familiar with the savor |
| Of the bread by which men die; |
| But to-day, they knew not why, |
| Like the gate of Paradise |
| Seemed the convent gate to rise, |
| Like a sacrament divine |
| Seemed to them the bread and wine. |
| In his heart the Monk was praying, |
| Thinking of the homeless poor, |
| What they suffer and endure; |
| What we see not, what we see; |
| And the inward voice was saying: |
| "Whatsoever thing thou doest |
| To the least of mine and lowest, |
| That thou doest unto me." |
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| Unto me! but had the vision |
| Come to him in beggar's clothing, |
| Come a mendicant imploring, |
| Would he then have knelt adoring, |
| Or have listened with derision, |
| And have turned away with loathing? |
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| Thus his conscience put the question, |
| Full of troublesome suggestion, |
| As at length, with hurried pace, |
| Toward his cell he turned his face, |
| And beheld the convent bright |
| With a supernatural light, |
| Like a luminous cloud expanding |
| Over floor and wall and ceiling. |
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| But he paused with awe-struck feeling |
| At the threshold of his door, |
| For the vision still was standing |
| As he left it there before, |
| When the convent bell appalling, |
| From its belfry calling, calling, |
| Summoned him to feed the poor. |
| Through the long hour intervening |
| It had waited his return, |
| And he felt his bosom burn, |
| Comprehending all the meaning, |
| When the blessed vision said: |
| "Hadst thou stayed, I must have fled." |
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| Henry W. Longfellow. |
| Into a ward of the whitewashed halls, |
| Where the dead and dying lay, |
| Wounded by bayonets, shells, and balls, |
| Somebody's Darling was borne one day— |
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| Somebody's Darling, so young and so brave, |
| Wearing yet on his pale, sweet face, |
| Soon to be hid by the dust of the grave, |
| The lingering light of his boyhood's grace. |
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| Matted and damp are the curls of gold, |
| Kissing the snow of the fair young brow, |
| Pale are the lips of delicate mold— |
| Somebody's Darling is dying now. |
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| Back from his beautiful blue-veined brow |
| Brush all the wandering waves of gold, |
| Cross his hands on his bosom now— |
| Somebody's Darling is still and cold. |
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| Kiss him once for somebody's sake, |
| Murmur a prayer both soft and low; |
| One bright curl from its fair mates take— |
| They were somebody's pride, you know. |
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| Somebody's hand hath rested there— |
| Was it a mother's, soft and white? |
| And have the lips of a sister fair |
| Been baptized in their waves of light? |
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| God knows best! he was somebody's love; |
| Somebody's heart enshrined him there; |
| Somebody wafted his name above, |
| Night and morn on the wings of prayer. |
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| Somebody wept when he marched away, |
| Looking so handsome, brave, and grand; |
| Somebody's kiss on his forehead lay, |
| Somebody clung to his parting hand. |
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| Somebody's waiting and watching for him— |
| Yearning to hold him again to her heart; |
| And there he lies with his blue eyes dim, |
| And the smiling, child-like lips apart. |
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| Tenderly bury the fair young dead, |
| Pausing to drop on his grave a tear; |
| Carve in the wooden slab at his head, |
| "Somebody's Darling slumbers here." |
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| Maria La Coste. |
| South Mountain towered upon our right, far off the river lay, |
| And over on the wooded height we held their lines at bay. |
| At last the muttering guns were still; the day died slow and wan; |
| At last the gunners pipes did fill, the sergeant's yarns began. |
| When, as the wind a moment blew aside the fragrant flood |
| Our brierwoods raised, within our view a little maiden stood. |
| A tiny tot of six or seven, from fireside fresh she seemed, |
| (Of such a little one in heaven one soldier often dreamed.) |
| And as we stared, her little hand went to her curly head |
| In grave salute. "And who are you?" at length the sergeant said. |
| "And where's your home?" he growled again. She lisped out, "Who is me? |
| Why, don't you know? I'm little Jane, the Pride of Battery B. |
| My home? Why, that was burned away, and pa and ma are dead; |
| And so I ride the guns all day along with Sergeant Ned. |
| And I've a drum that's not a toy, a cap with feathers, too; |
| And I march beside the drummer boy on Sundays at review. |
| But now our 'bacca's all give out, the men can't have their smoke, |
| And so they're cross—why, even Ned won't play with me and joke. |
| And the big colonel said to-day—I hate to hear him swear— |
| He'd give a leg for a good pipe like the Yanks had over there. |
| And so I thought when beat the drum, and the big guns were still, |
| I'd creep beneath the tent and come out here across the hill |
| And beg, good Mister Yankee men, you'd give me some 'Lone Jack.' |
| Please do: when we get some again, I'll surely bring it back. |
| Indeed I will, for Ned—says he,—if I do what I say, |
| I'll be a general yet, maybe, and ride a prancing bay." |
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| We brimmed her tiny apron o'er; you should have heard her laugh |
| As each man from his scanty store shook out a generous half. |
| To kiss the little mouth stooped down a score of grimy men, |
| Until the sergeant's husky voice said,"'Tention squad!" and then |
| We gave her escort, till good-night the pretty waif we bid, |
| And watched her toddle out of sight—or else 'twas tears that hid |
| Her tiny form—nor turned about a man, nor spoke a word, |
| Till after awhile a far, hoarse shout upon the wind we heard! |
| We sent it back, then cast sad eyes upon the scene around; |
| A baby's hand had touched the ties that brothers once had bound. |
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| That's all—save when the dawn awoke again the work of hell, |
| And through the sullen clouds of smoke the screaming missiles fell, |
| Our general often rubbed his glass, and marveled much to see |
| Not a single shell that whole day fell in the camp of Battery B. |
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| Frank H. Gassaway. |