The cabin of a fishing-schooner is a dark, stifled place, with everything crowded into it. The berths were like a double row of shelves along the sides. In one of these, with his face not far from the beams overhead, was stretched my poor, ill-treated Jamie. I was so afraid he would die! I had no pride then.
On this night I stood holding by the side of his berth, to steady myself. I turned away a moment to snuff the candle, and when I stepped back he looked up in my face and smiled. I couldn't help throwing my arms around his neck and kissing him. I never kissed a man before,—nor since.
"Joseph has come back," said he, with a smile.
I thought he was wandering, and made no answer. After that he frequently roused from his stupor and seemed inclined to talk.
One stormy night, when all hands were upon deck, he seemed like himself, only very sad, and began of his own accord to talk of what was always in my mind. He spoke low, being weak.
"Joseph," said he, "there is one question I want to ask you."
"Hush!" said I,—"you mustn't talk, you must be quiet." For I dreaded his coming to the point.
"I can't be quiet," said he, "and I must talk. You've something against me. What is it?"
I made no answer.
"But I know," he continued. "I have known all along. You've heard something about my old life. You think Mary is too good for me. And she is. But she is willing to take me just as I am. I'm not what I was. She has changed me. She will keep me from harm."