[43] The following statement of Hirschfeld’s illustrates this point (l.c., p. 315): “An urning, writer,—unus e multis—writes me: ‘The homosexual inclination developed in me in spite of the fact that the first sexual aggression was of a heterosexual character—a nursemaid seduced me—in spite of the fact that through training from childhood on I was taught to look at the female sex and my reading of literature showed me that woman was the object of love.’” I add: this tendency developed because the first sexual experience was associated with disgust on his part and because the domineering of woman led him to hate that sex.
[44] Die Darstellung der Neurose in Traums. Zentralblatt f. Psychoanalyse. vol. III, p. 26.
[45] In a novel which is an autobiography and a confession at the same time, the hero relates that during his first visit to the brothel he had to think of his mother. (Erlebnisse des Zoeglings Taxil. Wiener Verlag.) This book is interesting also because it describes accurately the homosexual practices in a school of cadets. The fact that young boys are impelled to think of their mother when visiting the brothel for the first time is often the cause of total impotence. Cf. Weininger: Geschlecht u. Charakter, chapter: Mutter u. Dirne. The work has been translated into English.