I shuddered. In all my life I had never known such a moment of indecision. Should I tell him? My conscience would give me no definite reply. The question had haunted me all the night, and I had lost my way in consequence, nor had the morning's ride from the Widow Brown's sufficed to bring me to a decision. Of what use to tell him? Would Riddle's death mend matters? The woman loved him, that had been clear to me; yet, by telling Nick what I knew I might induce him to desist from his search, and if I did not tell, Nick might some day run across the trail, follow it up, take Riddle's life, and lose his own. The moment, made for confession as it was, passed.
“They have ruined my life,” said Nick. “I curse him, and I curse her.”
“Hold!” I cried; “she is your mother.”
“And therefore I curse her the more,” he said. “You know what she is, you've tasted of her charity, and you are my father's nephew. If you have been without experience, I will tell you what she is. A common—”
I reached out and put my hand across his mouth.
“Silence!” I cried; “you shall say no such thing. And have you not manhood enough to make your own life for yourself?”
“Manhood!” he repeated, and laughed. It was a laugh that I did not like. “They made a man of me, my parents. My father played false with the Rebels and fled to England for his reward. A year after he went I was left alone at Temple Bow to the tender mercies of the niggers. Mr. Mason came back and snatched what was left of me. He was a good man; he saved me an annuity out of the estate, he took me abroad after the war on a grand tour, and died of a fever in Rome. I made my way back to Charlestown, and there I learned to gamble, to hold liquor like a gentleman, to run horses and fight like a gentleman. We were speaking of Darnley,” he said.
“Yes, of Darnley,” I repeated.
“The devil of a man,” said Nick; “do you remember him, with the cracked voice and fat calves?”
At any other time I should have laughed at the recollection.