Dream Tapestries

Dream Tapestries

by
Louise Morey Bowman
Author of “Moonlight and Common Day”

“Reason has moons, but moons not hers

Lie mirrored in her sea,

Confounding her astronomers

But, oh! delighting me.”

(Ralph Hodgson)

TORONTO: THE MACMILLAN COMPANY OF CANADA LIMITED, AT ST. MARTIN’S HOUSE MCMXXIV

Copyright, Canada, 1924
by The Macmillan Company of Canada Limited, Toronto

Printed in Canada

TO
ARCHIBALD ABERCROMBY BOWMAN

I wish to acknowledge the courtesy of the editors of Poetry (Chicago), The Bookman (New York), The Canadian Forum, and The Canadian Magazine, in permitting me to reprint “Cold Tragedy,” “Bread and Fire,” “Moment Musical,” “Blue Moon,” and “Oranges.”

CONTENTS

PAGE
The Wingéd Cloak [11]
DREAM TAPESTRIES
Hyacinth [15]
Enchanted Wood [16]
Green Apples [19]
ORANGES
Oranges [25]
THE MOUNTAIN THAT WATCHED
The Mountain that Watched [33]
The Old Fruit Garden [40]
SONGS OF WOMEN
Blue Moon [45]
Mistress Mary [46]
Daffy-Down-Dilly [47]
The Birth-Night [48]
A Portrait [50]
The Song of the Willow Wand [52]
The Dead Violin [54]
A Sketch [57]
CINQUAINS
City Child’s Easter [61]
Deep Snow [62]
Twelve Hokku on a Canadian Theme [64]
Life Sequence (In the Hokku Manner)[66]
Prayer in Scarlet and White Paint [67]
COLD TRAGEDY
Cold Tragedy [71]
HOMESPUN
Twins [75]
Bob Cooning [80]
Sympathy [84]
False Dawn [85]
The Witch [86]
The Post Box [88]
Song [89]
Bread and Fire [90]
“Moment Musical” [91]

THE WINGÉD CLOAK

I DRAW my cloak about me ...

Tattered and gray

To others it may be.

It seems to me

Of golden hue,

Broidered with mystic blue,

Woven each dawn anew,

And light as dew-ringed cobweb

On the grass.

Unscathed and joyously

In it I pass

Through drenching torrent, wind,

Fierce pitiless sun,

Till day is done.

Dream Tapestries

(1)
HYACINTH

HYACINTH dreams in the arbour ...

Just a crumpled mass of gray ...

Soft ashen hair and colourless skin,

Small, delicate hands blue-veined and thin ...

Hyacinth dreams in the arbour

And who shall say

What Hyacinth dreams to-day?

Hyacinth dreams in the arbour

And the stealthy pussy-cat creeps

To her silken lap in the soft green gloom.

Room for the pussy-cat, Hyacinth ... room!

Hyacinth dreams, in the arbour,

Of Life ... that steals and leaps

Like a panther out of the shadows ...

Hyacinth sleeps.

Hyacinth! Hyacinth! Open your eyes!

Your blue blue eyes like the Grecian seas!

Or Life will spring on your silken knees

And waken you with a wild surprise

Where you dream ... just a crumpled mass of gray.

Hyacinth dreams in the arbour.

Ah who shall say

What Hyacinth dreams to-day?

(2)
ENCHANTED WOOD

THROUGH the great glowing forest,

Green and dusky gold and ruddy brown,

Where sunbeams filter down

In showers of vibrant gold ...

Through the old, old wood

Passes the funeral pomp of the young, dead king.

Choristers sing

Strange, wailing, shuddering songs ...

Old chants, so old,

So desolate, drear.

Heavy, deep, purple velvet drapes the bier ...

Purple ... deep, passionate purple ...

A regal pall

Over the cold, young limbs, while the gold leaves fall

On the velvet pall.

On through the old wood moves

The great procession;

Deep, passionate purple draping the young, dead king;

And the choristers sing ...

And a small brown hare,

Startled, in quivering panic, scurries ahead

Leading the way for the king ...

The king who is dead.

In a bright green dell

Where they can see well,

Wait the butcher, the baker,

The candlestick maker.

“No more bread for he!”

Says the baker.

“No more meat for he!”

Says the butcher.

But the candlestick maker slaps his knee.

“Not such a bad day this for me!

No more meat and no more bread,

But candles to burn at his feet and his head.

Nor the living nor dead

Can’t get on without me!

And very very soon they’ll summon us three!”

“For the Feast!” grins the butcher

Wagging his head.

“For the Feast!” says the baker,

“They’ll soon need bread!”

“Men can’t do without we!”

They say, all three.

So the butcher, the baker,

The candlestick maker,

Watch the procession from the small green dell

Where they can all three see

Exceedingly well.

So the procession

Passed through the wood to the blue sea shore,

And they buried the king

Where the blue waves sing ...

And the young king rules no more.

But late that night through the lonely wood

Came a slim brown maid who had understood,

And mated her soul with the young, dead king,

With never a priest or mass or ring ...

And she carried a dagger with poisoned tip,

And pressed its point to her soft red lip ...

And she lay on the grave, and died.

Still at the turn of the year, men say,

Through the old, old forest in ghostly pageant

The funeral procession passes

Of the young, young king

Who is dead:

And the gold leaves fall

On his passionate purple pall,

And the small brown hare still scurries ahead

As if she were leading them all.

(3)
GREEN APPLES

THE garden lies spattered with wet green moonlight

Spilled from the night’s dark goblet;

And the wraith in the garden huddles mournfully

Silently watching,

Upon the broad marble seat,

Where white lilies and roses bloom.

Wine of pale silver-green drenches the garden.

The little gray wraith huddles mournfully,

Silently watching.

.......

On that broad marble seat to-day

Sat a beautiful lady ...

Through the hot golden hours of the long afternoon ...

Oh a beautiful lady!

With a warm wicked beauty of white, and of rose,

And of ebony.

Over her white breasts a long green scarf falling ...

Wet, bright, apple-green.

Out in the orchard, laughing

With clear, evil laughter ...

Ice laughter ...

She had gathered some little green apples

And bit them with strong white teeth.

“I am Eve! I am Eve in the garden ...

Come! Adam!”

And he followed ... poor, passionate lover ...

To the seat by the heavy white lilies and roses.

(Oh far far away lie the wise castle windows

Behind the rose gardens and lime trees!)

But after the lovers ... after them, swiftly, swiftly,

Like a fleeting gray shadow,

Speeds the little gray wraith ...

With feeble weak fingers of dampness

Pulling with tremulous touch at his heart-strings ...

Pricking like impotent tiny thorns;

Nipping, and pinching, and pricking

The shrivelled, black conscience of the rosy and beautiful lady.

See! from the shrivelled black conscience

One drop of bright, red blood,

As from prick of a rose thorn ...

And his heart-strings are drawn tight and knotted

With tiny, weak, slipping knots

Tied by feeble, damp fingers ...

Slipping ... slipping ... oh slipping!

But what does that matter?

For Time has come to the help of the gray wraith ...

Grave, gray Father Time with a handful of moments—

Dust? Ashes?...

He has set the rose-shrouded sundial in shadow.

.......

Now the broad marble seat is empty

Except where gray wraith has sunk down in the moonlight

Victorious.

Ah! ... the lady had dropped her bright, apple-green scarf,

And it stirs like a sinuous, long snake.

Is it only that one pointed corner is lifted

By the stealthy, stealing, night wind?

Slowly, slowly ... so feebly ...

The snake lifts itself with the wind’s help,

Revealing

A little green apple,

With some black dents where strong white teeth

Have bitten it.

And the small, gray wraith noiselessly moans and shudders.

But what matter?

For the long night passes.

Only the green scarf lies harmlessly, softly,

On the empty marble seat where the little gray wraith sits

And watches,

Victorious ...

Though the green wine of moonlight is drenching

The perilous garden.

Oranges

ORANGES

A SMALL New England village in the hills: ...

The date?

Oh, many, many years ago ... the season very late ...

November!

The conquering colours that a year must always hold

Have vanished.

Pale Northern Spring in tints of lilac, softest green and rose;

The short hot Summer’s purple and dark green and yellow gold;

The tawny richness of the harvest’s close ...

All past and vanquished in this sullen cold,

By sombre grays and browns, dead white and black.

The tall-spired meeting-house, the school,

The stiff white houses built by rigid rule,

Even the village store,

With hospitable, easily-opened door;

And their human owners reared in godly fear,

Austere, repressed,

Severe ...

How it all lies, before our modern eyes,

So grim.

Dressed in that rigid livery of nature’s gloom that suits it best.

Hear their stern hymn ...

Dignified, slow,

Sung in proud, solemn majesty of menace and woe.

“Our days as grass ... all earth is but a tomb” ...

What unfathomed gloom ...

Smouldering!

(2)

Keen bitter winds have stripped the great elm trees,

And swept the one long street

Ruthlessly neat;

Quite bare of all the withered, dead, brown leaves,

Except for small dry heaps that meet,

Trembling and mournfully rustling,

Caught

In the corners of the neat, white, picket fences;

Or drifting

Behind the pillars in the porch of the white meeting-house,

Unused through the long week

Except for Death.

How the winds shriek about the meeting-house!

(But wait before you shudder and turn away!)

With the keen, icy breath of the New England hills

Sharp in your nostrils,

Step over the threshold of the village store,

With its easily-opened door.

Breathe this different air,

Heavy with curiously mingled odours

As if another wind had blown in there

Heaps of rare

Drifted salvage ...

Some wild, rich wind from wild rich worlds beyond,

That folk cannot entirely withhold,

Even from a Puritan village long ago.

Beware ... ye righteous folk of old ...

Beware!

(3)

Here are great foreign boxes, wisely and deftly made,

That hold teas from the Orient, compactly laid;

And coffee beans.

Here spices, pungent and hot;

Tall, blue-wrapped cones of sugar; fine and coarse salt;

And finest quality of figured delaine;

Dark, serviceable calico dotted and plain;

Sheer delicate muslin, white as milk,

And thick black silk;

And broadcloth heavy and black;

And much, much more ...

Of quantity and quality no lack—

For this is the “general store,” of a prosperous man

Old and wealthy and wise,

In the village eyes.

Oh, Puritan New England would be clothed fittingly;

And Puritan palates know,

Both high and low

The wholesome savour of good food

When in the mood;

As well as very fine

Flavours in sermons by some “great divine;”

Or savour of ethics proved and tried,

And flavours in doctrines never very wide ...

But high and pure ...

(That you’ll acknowledge!)

God ... but they were sure ...

Those grim fine people of ours! ... another hymn ...

“Only such things as are godly and pure,

Saved from consuming wrath they shall endure.”...

Is that the echo of the bell

From the tall-spired white meeting-house?

Its bell is silent through the week, except for Death ...

Hear the wind shriek about the meeting-house!

But this small bell

Fastened above the door

Of the old village store,

Tinkles continually, where through the week,

They barter and buy and sell.

(4)

(In this short passing hour we shall see more ...)

He is a man of vision and breadth of mind ...

This storekeeper.

Back in the dusky depths of the old store

Are rows of books in sober black and brown;

Books for his town

That are not all volumes of sermons or hymns,

Or a “Garland of Sacred Poetry from Friend to Friend.”

(Does not some stern voice ask “Where will this end?”)

For here are books of perilous voyages, tales of human ways,

And human lives, and of the great, historic, coloured days

Of far-off empires ... Ah ... here are William Shakespeare’s mighty plays!

(But we must not stop to read more titles now ... the hour is almost past)

Daylight is fading fast ...

And heaped on the dark, well-rubbed old counter lies his last

And latest venture on seas of commerce ...

Oranges!

(5)

Oranges ... oranges ...

Great balls of golden wonder ... round, perishable globes ...

Here a ripe pyramid most carefully laid

Beside sad-toned materials for matrons’ robes,

And piles of iron-gray wool for their men’s winter stockings ...

Plain comfortable sight ... proof against sharp frost bite

Of the Northern Winters.

See how the oranges have caught up all the light!

What joyous tones they hold

Of vivid, bold,

Hot colour!

They glow like balls moulded of molten gold.

Above them from the rafters hang thin strings and strings,

Innumerable strings

Of dull, dried apples!

Nothing is here akin to the oranges at all ...

Nothing in all

This colourless, inanimate hoard ... nothing’s akin

Except that vague, enduring richness, so alluring,

That we smell,

When the small bell,

Over the door tinkles ... and we come in ...

Out of the keen, pure coldness of the wind.

(6)

So ... the scene is set ... for good and ill.

Over the highest hill

New winds blow wild and shrill:

For “the old order changeth” still.

Who now is sure what shall endure?

The street is empty ... in the dusky store,

Holding the eye with a voluptuous lure,

The oranges burn through the smouldering gloom.

The Mountain That Watched

THE MOUNTAIN THAT WATCHED

“IN the beginning” ... “The heavens and the earth” ...

“Let there be light” ...

After all we can’t improve on Genesis

After all we can’t improve on Genesis

For the condensed beginning of a tale!

But earth is much more earth, and heaven much more heaven

When it’s our own old Mountain, touching sky

Like this, right up in the middle of the island,

Than when it’s a mountain range across the oceans.

That’s to my way of thinking anyhow.

Mountain and city ... Edinburgh now ... but that’s another’s story ...

Sonnet form!

And now ... to mine, to-day.

To-day! To-day is written in curling smoke

Before the Mountain, dumb above the city ...

Our Mountain ... trying to make us understand,

By secret code, sign language ... what you will.

Rustling of leaves—

Pale green, dark amber, scarlet, crimsoning brown—

Deep coloured sighs and long deep breaths of earth—

Rustling of leaves—

“In the beginning”—

The river, the island, and the rustling leaves,

Arrows and mating and life and birth and death,

Silence and solitude;

But always the Mountain, touching cold blue sky

When the white men landed in their little boats,

When holy dreaming men and women came,

And built their funny little forts and towers,

And sacred shrines,

And made a new-world city.

And all the while the Mountain watched and watched.

Dirt? Well you certainly can’t expect a city’s docks,

or a great station at an entrance port,

to be like a Quaker meeting-house

on a seventh-day noon.

Docks! There’s a magical word! Not unpoetical

let me tell you, if you’ll only close your eyes

and use that “inward eye” your Wordsworth used

for daffodils. My God! you’d think he had secured that “eye”

to be hereafter used for “daffodils,” and “solitude” and “thrills,”

exclusively!

Come now! Just try it on for once to-day

with river docks filled with the motley throng ...

old world and new.

Deep searching eyes that seek the “golden West”—

wild eyes that hold the primal hunger lure,

young eyes that hold the secrets of the dawn,

sad eyes that hold the fury of the night—

We’ll have to stand the dirty docks I think,

and the crowded station—

holding a daffodil to your nose to smell

you’ll soon forget the nose and the daffodil!

What’s that you’re murmuring?

“It’s all like a magic casement opening out

on perilous seas....” Bless you for those kind words!

Though that’s John Keats that sees our docks—not you!

Wait just a moment—here is something now

that’s well worth watching! It’s the Jewish New Year,

and those are orthodox Jews who have come down

to cast their sins away in running water.

Mumbling in their beards ... from books, and some from memory ...

punctilious enough they are ...

shaking their overcoats ... (those two men, look!)

Into deep river ... old Father St. Lawrence running to the sea.

Old men, believers—and a few young ones too.

You see? Turn round and look at the motor cars.

Look at that old old woman from the slums—

Grandmother of Isaac and Jacob and Abraham—

Look at her! Carefully shake, shake, shake, old Mother!

Strong, wrinkled, kindly face—those toil-worn hands—

Come, let us try the “inward eye” again....

Verily—see! Her sins do drop and float away from her

on the dirty oily water—little sins

that float like tiny, bright-red maple leaves

cast from a lusty old tree in the Fall.

She’s known the life of the full ripe seasons through ...

carefully and punctiliously shake, shake, shake!

Let us go too from the docks with lightened hearts,

groping our way on upward through the slums.

Listen to the lilt and whimsical chattering

of alien tongues.

“And have not charity”—“Through a glass darkly” ... see?

We’ve dropped our classic daffodils and trod

upon them! But we’ve really seen—something.

To-day.

What else does the Mountain see?

Churches! Hotels! Domes, palaces and towers,

Steep hilly streets, shops, hovels, factories.

Limestone tradition!

Romance! Romance! Raw gold!

Merry-men, jesters, in a surging crowd

mingling with Holy Folk—

Miracles, shrines, and glorious, honest doubts—

raw gold, black, red,—

new thoughts breed sacraments—

white dreams and tawny sins—

the half-good, the half-bad—Humanity!

Groping humanity—

Who judges? How? Or why?

The Mountain watches.

Snow-dusted silent streets. The midnight mass—

with quiet thronging worshippers that pass

from darkness into glimmering ecstasies.—

Another mood ...

The blizzard—

The swirling wall-like drifts, while through the streets

the snow-ploughs move like huge primeval beasts

glutted with power;

wallowing through the mists of drifting powdery particles,

ploughing the snow.

The Mountain watches and possesses now

a festival afternoon of sparkling white,

pierced by the thrilling flights of vivid glancing skis—

pierced by the shooting downward in death-like dive,

of flat toboggans on the mountain slide.

Impertinence the Mountain tolerates!

The flashing facets of an ice palace

reared in a square beside a towering church of massive stone,

for half a continent to gaze upon if it so desires,

and feast between whiles.

(“H-mmm—Good advertising this—

Hush! Watch your step! Deliver the goods!”)

Ah well—Mount Royal, graven on a “souvenir!”

The Mountain watches.

“Truly an ice palace is a beautiful thing—a fairy tale!”

“You poets are so fantastic!” “You should worry!”

“My word I’m nearly dead for tea!” “Do hurry!”

“Ice plants for making artificial ice”—“Efficiency”—

“Gold seal—good jazz”

“The cafeterias are the thing to-day—

take up your tray

and walk!”

“What blasphemy!”

“Ice plants for making artificial ice”

“Fine bargain furs there if you’ve got the price”

“Gods! what a day!”

Then much the same in French—the rapid glancing tongue.

“Day uttereth speech” indeed.

“Night sheweth knowledge.”

The Mountain watches.

Night! Zero night—

like a dense black velvet skin

drawn tightly over the city;

and lights pricking, pricking, pricking—

like fiery pin-points in a million eyes

behind black skins, blazing with jungle light ...

a gay old city is sinister at night.

Rustling and creaking of black naked branches

On the old Mountain—

Stark twisted branches black against the snow

Snapping and crackling of frost-tortured trees—

Rustling—

Something has happened! The Mountain almost seems to tremble.

Down its sides rush the melting snows in torrents;

tumbling, tumultuous, most untidy rivers

through icy blackened parapets that still stand.

Washing day for the Mountain!

Ah but wait!—

Silver-green city in a rosy mist—Spring dawn!—

As Life has waked with a soft stirring

Of pouting leafy lips

And curling velvet finger-tips,

Through all the ages while the Mountain watched.

Rustling of leaves—

Silver-green, rose-red, amber, scarlet, brown—

Deep coloured sighs and long deep breaths of earth—

Rustling of leaves

Against my hand a little crumbling dust

Is softly blown—

Before my eyes a glory—sunset? Dawn?

And in my ears a great triumphant song—

Is it a song?

Or but the quiet breathing of a child

Who holds its coloured toys and drifts to sleep?

The Mountain watches and is very still.

THE OLD FRUIT GARDEN

MEMORY

THROUGH tortured weeks of hospital surgery

The old fruit garden of my childhood days

Grew close about me. Through black storms of pain

Swayed joyous boughs of rosy apple-bloom;

White blossomed branches of an old plum-tree;

Old grape-vines clinging to a sunny wall;

Great bushes of red currants and raspberries.

Through hours of torturing thirst I found again

That old fruit garden—as if body and soul

Clutched at cool juicy fruits—remembering—

Devouring them through a parched mouth of the brain.

GRAPES

Grandfather was so courtly, wise and calm:

At times a sweet old wordling, dealing balm

Through business phrase or words of ancient psalm,

Justice and whimsical kindliness to all.

As he watched mankind, so in early Fall,

He watched his grape-vines on the stable wall.

In old Quebec the season is too brief

To ripen grapes well ... sometimes scarlet leaf

Becomes a herald swift beyond belief.

The few big clusters with pale purple bloom

So slowly deepening, often met their doom

When rich October caught November’s gloom.

He never lost his interest ... every Fall

He saw his grape-vines as he’d dreamed them, all

Weighed down with purple riches, growing tall

Over the stable windows. On the way

To the rose garden where he walked each day ...

“These grapes are riper than last year” he’d say.

In spite of all the travelling he’d done

He sought no changes now and thought “no sun

Could be much brighter than a Canadian one!”

Yet I knew well his grapes brought visions fair

Of mellow summer lands with temperate air.

“Grapes are like men—can’t ripen everywhere....

Men all need sun, and right loam I suppose;

But if one strikes deep roots ... as a rule ... he grows!”

He smiled his smile and cut a late white rose.

RED CURRANTS

“Well! The red currants must be picked to-day.

They’re ready for jelly” Grandmother would say.

She never wasted words yet had her way.

In cool gray cotton gown, and black straw hat

Securely tied—She made a point of that

Though no breeze stirred the lilacs where she sat

To superintend old Jock and Marie Anne

At tasks of picking. When her palm-leaf fan

Waved slowly all was well; but my blood ran

Quicker when it moved very fast ... one knew

The hours were slipping past ... then old Jock too

And Marie Anne, would pick with greater zest.

“Granny! Red currant jelly’s much the best!”

“Black’s best for colds” she’d say, as she caressed

With firm kind fingers my rough curly head.

She rarely kissed me. Deep within was bred

Acid reserve and purity ... those red

Ripe currants, with their pleasant acid tang,

Seemed to me just like Grandmother! I sang

My multiplication-tables till they rang

Loud through the garden where dear Granny sat

Smiling—well-pleased—with firmly-tied black hat!

AMBER RASPBERRIES

Old Jock and Marie Anne could never find

Raspberries of the glowing amber kind

To fill the “ancient porcelain bowl.” (’Twas lined

With amber glaze; outside a gold vine wound

In such a graceful pattern round and round.)

But if my Mother looked she always found

Enough to fill the bowl. That day we’d three

Distinguished guests. I loved to have them see

My lovely Mother as she looked at tea....

Her gown of creamy lace—her shining hair,

Her beads of old carved amber ... all her rare

Fragile soft richness, like the berries there

With their pale amber bloom. I loved her so....

I wished that every body there could know....

“Why don’t you eat your berries, Child?” ... then low

I bent my head to hide two burning tears

Of yearning love. How strange those vague cold fears

My child heart knew that day ... what long long years

Since those last lovely hours of ecstasy

When she made Beauty live and thrill for me.

Songs of Women

BLUE MOON

OH I was young an’ feared o’ pain

When I went hot-lovering down the lane.

I sipped sweet honey wi’ my red lips,

An’ I touched fire wi’ my finger-tips,

But I drew them back again—

For the withered, gray woman so old and wise,

Wi’ the queer, hushed voice an’ the listening eyes,

An’ the stone-deaf ears, who lives i’ the lane—

She stepped so soft an’ she says “Rose-Jane!

You’re eating plum porridge (ye poor wee loon!)

Eating it hot in a rare blue moon.

You’ve a dimpled face like a rosy June,

But your mouth’ll be burnt

Before you’ve learnt

The way of a man in the moon.

And then they’ll call you ‘Old Rose-Jane

Who went hot-lovering down the lane.’

Beware of the rare blue moon, Rose-Jane!”

Saints bless that woman wi’ listening eyes!

I’ve planted the sweet-briar where she lies.

She stopped my ears an’ she made me wise.

I’m pure as the virgin saints are pure—

Now never a man my pale lips lure.

But once in a blue moon, I’m not sure

That the withered gray woman, wi’ listening eyes,

Didn’t cheat me out of a rare fine prize.

Something calls to me i’ the moon,

“Rose-Jane! Rose-Jane! Come! Come soon!”

MISTRESS MARY

“O MISTRESS Mary—Mistress Mary—

What have you found in your new old house?

Paperers are waiting you, and carpenters, and gardeners—

And you are up garret, just as still as a mouse!

What makes your eyes so wet and so round?

Mary—Mary! What have you found?”

“Where the sour old wind grieves under the eaves

There’s an old trunk hid—Oh the dust on the lid!

I pulled out from it a gay round box,

And in it were worn-out boots and socks—

Little, soft socks and little, stout boots—

And a child’s crude drawings of flowers and fruits,

And a tiny toy whip, and a ship and a ball—

Oh—they’re just like a little lost boy! That’s all!”

DAFFY-DOWN-DILLY

’TWAS a green velvet gown

That he wanted me to wear,

With a yellow satin ribbon

In my rough brown hair.

But his flame burned down

And then he turned cold;

And he sent for the Parson,

Who called me bold.

.......

So I’ve come down with my velvet gown

To earn my living in Evil-Town.

But I think I was ever more mad than bad,

And I’d very much rather be good and glad....

.......

Frowsy thing

With a broken wing!

Hark to the queer little songs she’ll sing!

Drowsy thing!

THE BIRTH-NIGHT

THE eerie fingers of the rain

All day have stroked my window-pane,

While all the day and all the night

Elves have been grinding, keen and bright,

Weird, tiny knives of nerves and wits.

Upon my heart an Elf-king sits ...

A cruel, Lilliputian mite ...

And by my breath he flies a kite

Of hope in life or hope in death.

He tugs and scowls with all his might ...

The kite depends on my frail breath.

I watch the earthly colours bright,

Painted upon that fluttering kite.

.......

Little boys fly gay kites

And play with marbles ...

Little boys laugh and shout

In the wind and the sunshine....

.......

Little Boy ... oh little Boy ... were you ever an Elf-king?

.......

The eerie fingers of the rain

All day have stroked my window-pane.

.......

Far off I hear a voice explain

“She seems to listen to the rain ...

She has put up a plucky fight!

A splendid boy! Oh she’s all right!”

.......

Elves! Elves! Stop your grinding!

Rain! Rain! Stop your stroking!

Bright little kite is gaily flying

In the sky ... for I’m not dying ...

I am alive!... alive!... alive!

Heart and soul and senses five!

.......

Now as soon as I can say anything

I’ll make them show me that Elfin-king!

A PORTRAIT

FRAIL, exquisite, indomitable face,

Where pain has left its trace ...

Where are the words to paint

Her curious austere charm ... elusive, pure,

As the frost etchings on the window-pane.

Ivory, ebony, lace ...

Yes I shall choose that clinging gown of black,

Severely plain, but with such frills of lace

Over the delicate wrists and blue-veined hands

That for an instant one feels all restraint

Quite useless! Ravishing, ecstatic frills

Of lace, or lacy thrills!

Choose either phrase!

She’s no fanatical saint ...

No, after all,

No saint at all!

Come help me, portrait painters rare and old ...

Velasquez, Romney, Reynolds and Van Dyke ...

Here’s what you’d like

Poured in a modern, twentieth century mould.

Ivory, ebony, lace ...

Her face

Brings suddenly before me grave and clear,

Impression of an old-time cavalier,

With feminine grace;

Brave glancing sword and delicate ripples of lace.

For she has conquered dragons of old pain

With a deep-shining clarity of thought:

Victorious though her frailty shows the strain.

I trace

With clumsy words the outlines of her face ...

Brave, grave, and suddenly flashing, purely gay,

Like the lace frills at play!

And so you see as I began I end

This portrait of my friend ...

Ivory, ebony, lace ...

Frail, exquisite, indomitable face!

THE SONG OF THE WILLOW WAND

SING hey the green willow

That grows in my valley!

Oh who would climb hill-tops

To see what’s beyond!

There came a gipsy vagabond

A-strolling down my valley,

With honey mouth for kissing

And a gown of dusky red.

“So this is how ye spend the days

Wi’ never a wind to freshen ye—

Climb up the hill wi’ me, my lad,

An’ look—see what’s beyond!”

She laughed wi’ me, and shared sweet bread,

And waved a willow wand.

By green moonlight we climbed the hill

And reached the top at morn,

And then she stood on tip-toe there

And blew a silver horn.

Oh at the other side the hill

Her gipsy lord was waiting there ...

I saw a joyous mating there

That left me all forlorn.

I watched her gown of dusky red

Against the blue horizon ...

Oh that was how I climbed the hill

And saw the world beyond.

I wonder why God let her come

And share sweet bread a-laughing,

And leave a-lying at my feet

Her broken willow wand.

Sing hey the green willow

That grows in my valley!

Oh who would climb hill-tops

To see what’s beyond?

THE DEAD VIOLIN

ICICLES ... icicles hang from the eaves

In glittering sheaves,

Over attic windows,

A cold wind heaves

Great, shuddering, gusty sighs; it grieves

For its waning power in the gay March sun,

Whose melting work now is well begun ...

Soft, slow,

Drip, drip,

Soft, slow,

Drop, drop ...

Great icicle tears ...

Glistening, heavy, sun-drenched tears!

Under my roof

Remote, aloof,

Lies this deer-hide trunk with its quaint, brass nails,

Ancient, small ...

How that old wind wails

As I lift the lid to see

What is here for me!

Delightful find!

All carefully, carefully lined

With old old wall-paper, blue and gold!

First I unfold

An Indian shawl ... then a linen sheet ...

Oh ... packets of letters, still faintly sweet ...

“More letters to burn!” I groan, “Dear dear!

But here ... look here!

As I live an old, old violin,

So frail and thin,

And dusky dark in its shapely line;

A shell out-worn; (hear that old wind whine!)

With a cruel gash here at one side,

And the tail-piece torn

And dangling, tied by a piece of twine ...

A dead violin in fine.

.......

“We spend our years as a tale that is told”

Violins packed in a poetry mould!

Blue violins that, liquid, pour

Vanished songs on a mystic shore ...

Green violins that ecstatic trill

Like bobolinks, till the year stands still

In a lyrical meadow of green and gold ...

(Violins packed in a poetry mould!)

Red violins of a summer night

Throbbing with passionate, blood-red song ...

Dead violin! Ice-bound so long ...

Soft!

Soft ... drop softly icicle tears ...

Icicle tears from the ice-bound years,

Vibrating under my strong, new roof,

Where the old violin, remote, aloof,

Lies in my hands so terribly dead ...

Never an echo of throbbing red ...

Dead. Dead.

.......

I want to bury it where it will rot

In rich warm earth, in a noontide hot,

Under the mightiest tree I know,

And let it again through the tree-roots grow.

I’ll fold it close in the soft, old sheet,

Place the letters, still faintly sweet,

Against the gash in its dark-hued side ...

Its the violin—not Love—that died.

A SKETCH

I HEAR him humming as he drives his car,

In mellow baritone, an ancient psalm—

Drifting down to his subtle modern brain

From his old covenanting ancestors,

Who strode bare-kneed through purple heather bloom,

Praising their God on wind-swept Highland hills.

I am his wife. Beside him vividly,

I see now not the crowded city streets,

Through which he presses, strong, aloof and calm,

Factories and shipyards where his vast machines

Whirr steadfastly, obedient to his brain—

I see now just those small and golden hours

When he is mine.

Cinquains

CITY CHILD’S EASTER

FRAGRANCE

Of Hot Cross Buns:

Pots of white lilies: sunshine: magic eggs:

New skipping-ropes—but old old winds

Of Faith.

DEEP SNOW

POWDER

Of diamond

Upon a silver birch;

Old stone wall

Buried deep.

And you ...

A scarlet bird

Whose wild wings flutter here

Against my soul. How still

The world!

HOKKU

*“‘Hokku’ (seventeen-syllable poem) in Japanese mind might be compared with a tiny star, I dare say, carrying the whole sky at its back. It is like a slightly-open door, where you may steal into the realm of poesy. It is simply a guiding lamp. Its value depends on how much it suggests.”

(Yone Noguchi, from The Pilgrimage,
published by Elkin Mathews, London, Eng.)

TWELVE HOKKU ON A CANADIAN THEME

(1)

HOW strangely they float,

Pale gold and ivory cups,

On wilderness lakes.

(2)

The loon’s weird laughter

Holds Indian deviltry,

Long, long forgotten.

(3)

Indian cradle

Swung from bough, rocked by Four Winds:

Christ lay in manger.

(4)

Silver-haired Marquise!

You were transplanted, one Spring,

Into wild New France.

(5)

The sugar maples ...

Benevolent goddesses

Who offer honey.

(6)

Snow-shoes: like strong wings

Bound on the feet of victors

Conquering snow-fields.

(7)

On city pavements

Two muffled, sombre nuns pace,

Behind laughing girls.

(8)

You set narcissus

Amidst your silver birches

By Northern lakeside.

(9)

Five o’clock! You pause ...

Handle frail, old cups, pour tea,

And become grande dame.

(10)

When Loneliness stalked ...

Black panther through gold wheat-fields ...

You used Love’s arrows.

(11)

Puissant woman!...

Sheltering tiny things like

English primroses!

(12)

Fast the new trails lead

From wilderness to city!

Years pass ... Canada!

LIFE SEQUENCE

(In The Hokku Manner)

(UNREADY)

Close-folded fern ...

So stiff; so coldly self-sustained:

But summer passes.

(Motherhood)

Puss watches the world,

Troubled: but knows she is linked

To a miracle.

(Home)

Empty room; fire dies;

Moon shines in; chairs and tables converse;

Books croon songs.

(Awakening)

Gray old tree

Has breasted winter storms; but is vaguely

Worried by March.

(Memorial Tablet)

Sunshine on storied bronze:

Love on the whirling earth:

And you on my heart.

PRAYER IN SCARLET AND WHITE PAINT

THERE is a marvellous washing

creamy and snowy-white

hung high on lines

stretched from upper and lower balconies

in the back-yard, across the narrow lane

behind my rusty apple-tree

and dusty lilac hedge;

and a great splendid ‘woman-by-the-day’

comely and fat, with a bronzed skin

and tumbled blue black hair,

and an ugly and joyous scarlet gown,

is hanging out the clothes ...

wet heavy clean white clothes ...

soft liquid splashes of light amidst dull dusty trees

and sombre dirty bricks.

The laden lines begin to ripple seductively

in the cool sour east wind.

There is no sun to-day,

but the great splashes of high-hung white,

the competent brown arms,

the comfortable strength in vivid scarlet ...

they have given me the warmth and wonder

and the refreshment

of tumbling woodland waters

and blazing sun.

I thank you ... Life!

I daub it in on a bit of canvas

(with a copy of a Botticelli madonna on the other side!)

so I may remember ......

the sordid back lane has become quite immaterial ...

I thank you ... Life!

Cold Tragedy

COLD TRAGEDY

FLORENCE

HOW this old terrace of mellow, creamy stone

Grows warm in this noontide sun of Italy ...

I sit alone

And dream a piteous dream of ecstasy

And suddenly wake!

In that raw town by a Canadian lake

Does she pause now ... to watch the falling snow?

Before me stretch the olive trees that glow

With their soft silvery radiance; far below

The towers of Florence rise, like tall carved flowers.

Ah I know well she does not count her hours

That swiftly pass from dawn to candle-light ...

She has the sun-filled day ...

I but the night!

VENICE

Dense violet sky of sparkling stars above,

And all around

The soft, mysterious stirring of dark velvet water

That makes no sound.

And here in the old Square

Life ... surging, swaying, sparkling everywhere,

As if it held at arms’ length waiting there

The sky and water and their mysteries.

But near me at a little table alone,

A red-haired, black-eyed woman broods and waits,

Gazing across the empty cups and plates.

Her bright hair makes a glory in the light,

But her dark eyes, unseeing, bring the night,

Too near!

ROME

So ... only the little things are left to me ...

Cold comforts they!... Beauty my only home.

Drifting of almond bloom ... gray ruins of Rome ...

The Italian sun that makes these old stones warm ...

Lilt of old poems ... sight of a girlish form ...

Gay little laughter ... moon through the cypress trees ...

I occupy myself quite well with these.

Homespun

TWINS

(The old Housekeeper speaks)

I’VE seen a good deal in my life.

My own story was over you see

Pretty young—

But I’ve danced an’ I’ve sung

In my day with the best.

I’ve been blest

With the love of a fine brave man,

An’ a babe at my breast.

But now that’s all past,

An’ I’ve got a good home that’ll last

(An annuity too)

Till old Mr. Drayton an’ I

Get through!

What d’ye say?

Hmmm—

It’s funny you like to hear me talk,

An’ drop in like this on your afternoon walk.

Now you want to know—don’t you?—

Yes yes— —

This last queer thing that’s happened!

I guess

You’ll like it because you like cats!

Well—last night

With the fire burnin’ bright

I was sittin’ an’ knittin’

An’ watchin’ the kitten

An’ the old mother cat.

I sat

Here; an’ there by the table a-readin’

As usual—a-readin’ as if he was feedin’

His stomach an’ soul,

Sat old Mr. Drayton—as droll

An’ dried up an old sinner

As ever took dinner

With his book by his plate,

Readin’ early an’ late,

With his shinin’ bald head an’ its mole.

But he does love a kitten—

An’ likes me here knittin’—

Poor soul!

Well all of a sudden the bell rang.

I went just as spry as I could

But I thought die I should

When I opened the door

An’ I saw standin’ there

In the hall lamp’s red glare

Another old Drayton—as like as two peas—

The one at the table behind me a-readin’

An’ here on the step number Two stood—a-kneadin’

His long pointed chin

With his skinny old hand.

But he says very bland—

A-stickin’ his eye glass up tight in his eye,

With the black ribbon danglin’

“My good woman—I

Am your master’s twin brother.

Mr. Drayton is in?”

An’ all I could say like a booby was

“Twin? Twin brother—twin brother—

Oh Luddy! Twin? Twin!”

Then my Drayton spoke

An’ I almost jumped out of my skin—

With his dry old voice

Just like an echo—

“I’m in.

Twin.”

Then he says “Mrs. Beaton! Stay here!”

I tell you I felt queer.

There they sat by the fire

With the table between,

Just eyein’ each other—

Twin brother—twin brother—

Both babes of one mother.

The old cat humped an’ spit on my knees

An’ run off with a sneeze.

Then said he—the new Drayton—

“Well Richard she’s dead!

Kittie’s dead—

And the last words she said

Were ‘Now Rob you make up with him Dear.’

So Richard—I’m here.”

But my Drayton sat quiet—

Poor, shrivelled, dear soul

With his mole.

An’ I noticed the other was lackin’ the mole

But otherwise—My! They are certainly twins!

“Yes” said Drayton, “You’re in

My house, Twin.

So she thought Bitter Past

Can be sweetened at last!

Pretty thin!”

An’ the light on his mole

Seemed to shrivel his soul.

You’d have heard it if I’d dropped a pin.

Then they sat an’ they sat an’ they sat.

I could see it was flat

That somethin’ would have to be done

Or there’d nothin’ be won

For either. I felt as if maybe we’d sit

Till Eternity come

Or till I had a fit!

For with chins like theirs set—

I was in a cold sweat

I can tell you. I took up my knittin’

To just die there—sittin’

When sudden that kitten

She just took a glance

An’ made one funny prance

Up that table at Drayton—

The new one—She put up her paw

An’ she patted his danglin’ black ribbon.

Oh Law—an’ he had to hold tight

To his eyeglass to fix it safe into his eye.

Then if she didn’t try

To get at it again

An’ she sat up an’ blinked

In his face for a minute—the man never winked.

Then she played with her tail

Right under his chin—

Just a gray ball of fur

With two eyes an’ a purr.

An’ the light that was caught

In his great signet ring,

She saw that an’ patted it—cute little thing—

An’ she licked all his hand with her little pink tongue,

An’ then back to my Drayton

As if she’d been stung!

A-curlin’ right up on his shoulder an’ purrin’

The only live thing in the room that was stirrin’.

Oh I tell you that kitten was more than just—cat!

Love was usin’ that kitten,

I felt sure of that.

Back an’ forth she went playin’

Between those old twins

An’ the room still so quiet you might have heard pins

A-droppin’. I burst right out.

“Luddy” I said “You two men! Why that kitten’s

Possessed of the dead!

If you could just see yourselves sittin’ up there

Like two graven images—each on a chair—

An’ that little kitten a-tryin’ to play

With you both—I’m clean crazy!

I will go away!”

I just shrieked it out an’ they both spoke at once—

“Now now my good woman—

Come don’t be a dunce!”

An’ I said

“Well I’m neither a dunce nor—a twin!

But if there’s names goin’ why I’ll just begin

An’ I’ll say you’re twin dunces!”

Then sudden I saw

Them both smile—at the kitten!

It felt like a thaw

After ice—up in Greenland.

Oh yes—they’re both well.

An’ the comfort they’re takin’

I’ve no words to tell.

BOB COONING

“BOB Cooning the giant’s come home to die”—

So the village folk say

To-day.

They shake their heads and they peer and spy,

And they draw in their breaths—

“Dear—Dear!” they sigh;

And they cook him dainties

And wonder why

The Lord ever made, under His kind sky,

Bob Cooning!

Bob Cooning the giant was only a boy,

Like Harry or Tom or Jim or Dick,

But one that the other boys couldn’t lick.

Never a clean fair fight for Bob

As boy to boy. “That’s a dirty trick—

To hit a fellow just half your size!”

I’ve seen the tears in Bob’s big blue eyes.

“Give me a man to fight!” he’d say,

And they’d jeer—“You’ll keep till another day!”

Poor Bob would turn and slouch from the place

And lie face down in tall “Queen Anne’s lace”

And sob and sob to the cool brown earth,

Far off from the sound of his playmates’ mirth—

Poor Bob Cooning!

And he could not learn to cipher or read,

And he felt himself of a different breed.

He ate so much, and his clothes cost more

Than any one else, till his father swore.

He slouched and stooped through the highest door.

His poor little mother wailed and cried—

But his wise old Granny only sighed

“It’s the good God made him an’ He’ll provide.”

How Bob Cooning cried when his Granny died!

Then one night when the village was racked and thrilled

With the circus tents, and the beast cries shrilled

From the hot green meadow, Bob Cooning went

With a sharp-faced man to a certain tent.

Tom, Harry and Dick saw the last gay train

Pull out, but they never saw Bob again

Until, one day, through our old church door,

At the morning service, strode Bob once more

With his head thrown back, and a smile as bland

As the great glass ring on his vast pink hand.

How the people young and old did grin

As the handsome giant came walking in

With his sporty suit of a fine light check,

And the great starched collar about his neck!

How he dwarfed our poor little house of God!

Dr. Smitters was preaching on Aaron’s rod,

And how it budded in miracle bloom.

“Say! With Bob in a church there ain’t hardly room

For us and the minister both!” So Jim

The wag, so dapper and keen and slim

Whispered to Pollie—but Pollie just sighed.

“Oh my, but Bob’s splendid!” Pollie replied.

That winter Bob Cooning was just like a king!

His father boasted “A darn fine thing

For us, that our son went away that day!

I tell you he’s made the show business pay.

He’s heaps of cash an’ he says he’ll stay

Here a while—but he may go any day.”

When the glamour wore off the wise heads said

“He’s stupid as ever, with wits like lead.”

And more than one mother wished he’d go—

“So handsome—he does turn the girls’ heads so!”

And finally, all in the sweet green May,

He went off again on a “Circus Day.”

And when he came back for the second time—

This isn’t a story to put in rhyme—

Now is it?—And yet if the Lord saw fit

To make a giant and jest a bit

Right out here in our country-side

With every one seeing him far and wide—

Well it seems to me that a rhyme goes fine

For this pitiful, circus-like tale of mine—

Of giant Bob and his coming home

Never again with his shows to roam.

“He’s fadin’ out like a wisp o’ hay”

Said his poor little mother to me to-day.

“He smiles at me an’ says ‘Ma—I’m small!

An’ I always thought I was awful tall!’

An’ he’s just as happy as he can be

When he thinks he’s a wee boy—deary me!”

And I said “Mrs. Cooning—now don’t you fret.

I guess God will know how to handle him yet.”

And she said “Well—he has been a famous man

In them shows!”—So—we all do the best we can.

He’s a terrible problem to bathe and lift,

But we’ve got it arranged, in a “double shift.”

Bob Cooning, the giant, has come home to die.

And the God that made him—

He must know why!

SYMPATHY

THAT ugly pumpkin-coloured house

That I saw from the train—

I have wondered about the minds of the people inside

But I wonder in vain.

Did they choose that paint?

Or perhaps it was brought them to buy—

Oh I hope now they’ve got it all done that they like it—

And don’t just have to try.

Oh I hope that it shines there for them

In their sunny green fields

Like a lantern at night—

And I hope that on dull rainy days they both say to each other

Don’t it look nice and bright?”

Oh I think I shall never forget them

In their new-painted house!

FALSE DAWN

(1)

MY apple trees have blossomed in a night,

And pale green moonlight bathes their rose and white

With a strange wine that makes the pulses throb.

A sleepy robin now mistakes the light,

And his soft doubting note sounds like a sob

Voicing the thought that draws my heart-strings tight.

(2)

What Life could give you is not yours to take

Nor mine to give—and yet to-night I wake

Remembering your giving. But the note

Of that moon-haunted robin must not shake

My calm belief that you—austere, remote—

Need nothing I can ever mar or make.

THE WITCH

THEY—the good people—heard her song

From out of the wood that grows thick in the valley.

She had climbed to the hill-top that rises, blue,

Out of the wood as one comes through.

Grass on the hill-top waving long,

And a smooth gray stone where she kept her tally

Of the years and the days in the wild singing wood.

She lived her life as a virgin should

Till the people heard her song.

They climbed the hill and they frowned and said

“We liked your songs that we heard in the valley.

We don’t like that one you are singing to-day!

It’s mad and it’s bad and it’s much too gay!

But we’ve brought you some meat and bread.”

Then they saw on the stone her tally,

And they shook their heads ... “Look here! Look here!

Oh it’s very very plain she is queer ... mad queer!”

And they took her away on that self-same day,

Though she fought till she lay half-dead.

Now all she had written on the smooth gray stone

Were the strange magic things (O the deep blue wings!)

That happen in a wild, singing wood.

But they said “She hasn’t lived as a virgin should ...

When she dies she shall lie on the hill for good.”

And they laid her there, with her soft black hair

Strained back from her dead white brow.

“We will set at her head for a tombstone now

This stone where she kept mad tally!”

But she laughed as she sped from that hill-top bed

And roamed through the wood and the valley ...

“Oh wild blue wings I am free” (sang she)

“Now I own the singing wood and the wood owns me,

Oh the hill-top too and the valley!

They gave back my stone and they’ve left me alone ...

I am free! I am free! I am free!”

THE POST BOX

THERE is something very wonderful

In the posting of a letter—

So few acts have the clarity of this.

A clear-cut, forceful and far-reaching act

Of pain or bliss,

So it may be:

Irrevocable in the subtlest way—

To-day—

You see?

The post box flashes red

A sign and seal of dominating law

Through April green, or hard and glittering white

Of winter snow.

One may have vacillated day and night,

Longing to end the turmoil, stress and strain,

Questioning what is best or wise or right—

And then post box gleams red!

Cutting clean through the world of indecision

Like a shout

Of triumph!

Then a soft flat thud—

Like tiny echo floating out

From a beyond of peace.

The letter falls—

Decisive act, prisoned in four red walls.

SONG

DEW ...

Delicate lanterns, star-kindled anew,

And a sword of silver

Brave, shining and still ...

With roses—deep roses of crimson—

And, sheathing the blade,

Greek hyacinths blue.

Ah ... the treasures, the symbols, we laid

In the deep cold mould on the hill

With the body of you!...

But over the mould there flew

Something wingéd that earth could not hold—

You!...

BREAD AND FIRE

BELOVED Friend,

I write this verse to you

As if it were a letter I could send.

It seems to me sometimes my heart slips through

The purple barriers between us two,

And finds again your fire, your sacred bread:

Their warmth and wholesome sweetness ...

Fire and Bread!

Beloved, these symbols nourish Life anew ...

You are not dead!

“MOMENT MUSICAL”

BLUE moth!...

Tiny, pulsating thing ...

You and I met upon a rocky hill.

I paused ...

You paused, and poised

Blue,

Blue on a dark stone:

And all the vibrant sunshine in the world

Was caught for the sparkle

On your tiny wings ...

Blue moth!

Transcriber’s Notes

Obvious typographical errors have been silently corrected. Variations in hyphenation and accents have been standardised but all other spelling and punctuation remains unchanged.