“All right then. I promise you, after the holiday, if only.... Oh yes, there is your Integral. I always forget to ask; will it soon be completed?”
“No. ‘If only’ what? Again! ‘If only’ what?”
She, already at the door: “You shall see.”
I was again alone. All that she left behind her was a barely perceptible scent, similar to that of a sweet, dry, yellow dust of flowers from behind the Green Wall; also, sunk deeply within me,
question marks like small hooks similar to those the ancients used for fishing (vide the Prehistoric Museum).
... Why did she suddenly ask about the Integral?
RECORD TWENTY-FOUR
The Limit of the Function
Easter
To Cross Out Everything
I am like a motor set in motion at a speed of too many revolutions per second, the bearings have become too hot and in one more minute the molten metal will begin to drip and everything will go to the devil. Cold water! Quick! Some logic! I pour pailfuls of it, but my logic merely sizzles on the hot metal and disappears in the air in the form of vapor.
Of course it is clear that in order to establish the true meaning of a function, one must establish its limit. It is also clear that yesterday’s “dissolution in the universe” taken to its limit is death. For death is exactly the most complete dissolution of the self in the universe. Hence: L=f (D), love is the function of death.