How many sciences must one know (his conversation with Vanka).
—Voluptuousness (he wants to remain in this state until he has money).
—And the enormous idea of domination (a direct feeling) is hidden so deep in him that he does not feel able, by himself, to adjust himself to these people.
He is surprised at himself, puts himself to the test, and loves to plunge into the abyss—
—The running away with the little girl and the murderer Kulikov immediately after his removal from Sushar’s to Chermak’s. (The fact which produces an overwhelming effect on him and which has even somewhat unsettled him so that he feels a natural need to contract inwardly and to reflect so as to lean on something.) He leans after all on money.
Of God meanwhile he does not think.
His silence ends after a year and a half by his confession about Kulikov.
After Kulikov, he is humble at home and in the boarding-school in order to reflect and
find himself,
to concentrate.