“And the capitalists?”
“My friend Martin is the only one I know. But I imagine they are just the same. They expect their money to do their thinking for them. Money and crowds have just the same hypnotic effect. Do you remember on one of our tours when we were driving at night with the big headlight showing up the road fifty yards in front of us? It was a summer night, and as we flashed past trees the birds for a moment took us for the sun and began to wake up. It was amusing, the swish of the wind we made in the trees, the sudden singing of the birds, who sank to sleep again in the darkness we left behind us. And then as we drove along a woodland road a rabbit darted out into our light, and could not get out of it. If we drove slowly he ran slowly. If we put on pace to scare him away he kept ahead of us. If we stopped he couched down with his ears back and his eyes starting out of his head, absolutely confined by the walls of darkness round our light, and, I suppose, hypnotized by his own terror. It seems to me that human thought is a light like ours, and that individual men rush into it like the rabbit and cannot get out of it. It needs only a little plunge into the darkness to be back safe and happy in your own life, but they can’t take the plunge. We were able to turn the light off the rabbit at a cross-road to let him go, but nothing can take the light of human thought off men. The analogy is rather interesting, because the light of human thought is not borne by a horrible engine, but only seems so to those who are hypnotized by their own terror, and it seems normal to be scurrying away from it and to die—morally—of exhaustion. A few men, when they come into the light, are brave enough to step out of it to discover whence it comes. They find it kindled in themselves and, tracing it to its source, they find it in the will to live, and they reach the determination to carry it farther over the world they live in, in order to break down the walls of darkness.”
“That is rather beyond me,” said Kurt. “I’m no good at ideas. If you let me keep to people I’m all right. Some people do me good; other people make me feel cramped and choked. I’m not clever enough to know why. And there are lots of nice people with whom it is quite enough if one can make them laugh. They don’t seem to matter either way.”
“You see,” said René, “human thought doesn’t shine until it is energized with feeling and brought into contact with the divine power that keeps things going. That is what the scared people take for a remorseless, swift, destroying engine.”
“I remember now,” said Kurt, “that Linda said you were a mystic. That was when you were an economist, and I told her it was nonsense, because no mystic could read a page of Marshall—wasn’t that your fat book?”
“I don’t know whether it’s mysticism or not, but I can’t accept experience without sifting it. I suppose if I could do that I should still be in Thrigsby keeping up appearances.”
“And Linda would never have written her plays. That would have been a pity.”
“How absurd you are, Kurt. But you seem able to sift experience before it comes to you. You seem to be able to do the right thing at the right time.”
“I never worry about it. Life seems so simple to me. Directly it looks like being complicated, I switch off and try again. The only thing that worries me is that it looks horribly as though I should never marry. I fall in love all right and somehow that always complicates things, so then I fall out of love. I can’t love a complicated woman, and I haven’t met an uncomplicated one. They all want to feel more than they do. Play-acting, I call it.”
Kilner came in then. He greeted Kurt morosely, for his clothes showed that he came from the brilliant world, the object of the painter’s particular detestation, and Kurt’s manner might easily be taken for that affability which puts you at your ease and so disconcertingly leaves you there.