Yes Lord although I am very wicked and cold and dull yet I could say without hesitation I do love thee very much I often feel my heart warm towards thee and something tells me that one day I shall love thee far better than I do now.
4. Could you before God say truly ‘I strive to live as I hope to die’?
No I fear I could not although sometimes I do try to do things to please Jesus.
5. Do you really in your heart know your religion to be a mere form or do you really feel its life-giving influence on your heart?
I know I often say far more than I really believe, I even have been tempted so far as to doubt in my heart the existence of a Diety but yet I have had a few bright moments in which I could sincerely say Yes I know it I know that Christ is mine and I am his but a deep gloom is generally over my spirit.
6. Do you in your heart believe yourself to be a new creature?
I know not but I fear not although at times I have been fully convinced that I am God’s child.
7. Do you earnestly desire to be such?
Most earnestly whenever anything touches that chord in my heart and sometimes I could weep bitterly but generally I feel awfully indifferent as to my soul.
8. Do you think you have ever known what true prayer is?