If the truth be told, Fanny Brawne is a fairly good-looking young woman, blue-eyed and long-nosed, her hair arranged with curls and ribbons over her brow: she has a curious but striking resemblance to the draped figure in Titian's "Sacred and Profane Love": and for the rest, she is by no means poetic or sentimental, but a voluminous reader, whose strong point is an extraordinary knowledge of the history of costume. She accepts the homage of Keats, much as she accepts the fact of their tacit betrothal, and the fact that her mother disapproves of it—without taking it too seriously in any sense. And now, though not particularly keen on open-air enjoyment, she accepts his daily suggestion of a walk with her; and they go out into the beautiful meadows which were part of Hampstead a hundred years ago.
Keats is in his glory in the fields. Always, the humming of a bee, the sight of a flower, the glitter of the sun, have "seemed to make his nature tremble: then his eyes flashed, his cheek glowed, his mouth quivered." Peculiarly sensitive, as he is, to external influences, his chief delight is to "think of green fields … I muse with the greatest affection on every flower I have known from my infancy." The man who is so soon to "feel the daisies growing over him," takes one of his intensest pleasures in watching the growth of flowers; and now, as an exquisite music, "notes that pierce and pierce," descends through the young green oak-leaves, the poet seizes this golden moment of the May world and transmutes it into song.
| My heart aches, and a drowsy numbness pains |
| My sense, as though of hemlock I had drunk, |
| Or emptied some dull opiate to the drains |
| One minute past, and Lethe-wards had sunk: |
| 'Tis not with envy of thy happy lot, |
| But being too happy in thine happiness,— |
| That thou, light-wingèd Dryad of the trees, |
| In some melodious plot |
| Of beechen green, and shadows numberless, |
| Singest of summer in full-throated ease. |
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| O, for a draught of vintage, that hath been |
| Cool'd a long age in the deep-delvèd earth, |
| Tasting of Flora and the country-green, |
| Dance, and Provençal song, and sunburnt mirth! |
| O for a beaker full of the warm South, |
| Full of the true, the blushful Hippocrene, |
| With beaded bubbles winking at the brim, |
| And purple-stainèd mouth; |
| That I might drink, and leave the world unseen, |
| And with thee fade away into the forest dim: |
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| Fade far away, dissolve, and quite forget |
| What thou among the leaves hast never known, |
| The weariness, the fever, and the fret |
| Here, where men sit and hear each other groan; |
| Where palsy shakes a few, sad, last grey hairs, |
| Where youth grows pale, and spectre-thin, and dies; |
| Where but to think is to be full of sorrow |
| And leaden-eyed despairs; |
| Where beauty cannot keep her lustrous eyes, |
| Or new Love pine at them beyond tomorrow…. |
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| Thou wast not born for death, immortal Bird! |
| No hungry generations tread thee down; |
| The voice I hear this passing night was heard |
| In ancient days by emperor and clown: |
| Perhaps the self-same song that found a path |
| Through the sad heart of Ruth, when sick for home, |
| She stood in tears amid the alien corn; |
| That same that oft-times hath |
| Charm'd magic casements, opening on the foam |
| Of perilous seas, in faery lands forlorn. |
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| Forlorn! the very word is like a bell |
| To toll me back from thee to my sole self! |
| Adieu! the fancy cannot cheat so well |
| As she is famed to do, deceiving elf. |
| Adieu! adieu! thy plaintive anthem fades |
| Past the near meadows, over the still stream, |
| Up the hill-side; and now 'tis buried deep |
| In the next valley-glades: |
| Was it a vision, or a waking dream? |
| Fled is that music:—do I wake or sleep? |
| Ode to a Nightingale. |
The poet is recalled from these rapturous flights to the fugitive sweetness of the present: he is wandering in May meadows, young and impetuous, on fire with hopes, and his heart's beloved beside him. It is almost too good to be true. "I have never known any unalloyed happiness for many days together," he tells Fanny; "the death or sickness of someone has always spoilt my home. I almost wish we were butterflies, and lived but three summer days—three such days with you I could fill with more delight than fifty common years could ever contain." He talks to her earnestly of his dreams, his aspirations, his ambitions: and then the sordid facts of every-day life begin to cast a blighting shadow over his effulgent hopes. What has he, indeed, to offer, worth her taking? A young man of twenty-three, ex-dresser at a hospital, who has abandoned his surgical career without adopting any other: with slender resources, and no occupation beyond that of producing verses which are held up to absolute derision by the great reviews. "I would willingly have recourse to other means," he tells her again, as he has told his friend Dilke, "I cannot: I am fit for nothing else but literature." He talks of taking up journalism—but in his heart he feels unfit for any regular profession, by reason both of physical weakness and a certain lack of system in mental work. The future becomes blackly, blankly overcast; the res augusta domi descend like a curtain between the sublimity of Keats and the calm commonsense of Fanny. They turn homewards in silence, the poet revolving melancholy musings.
| But when the melancholy fit shall fall |
| Sudden from heaven like a weeping cloud, |
| That fosters the droop-headed flowers all, |
| And hides the green hill in an April shroud; |
| Then glut thy sorrow on a morning rose, |
| Or on the rainbow of the salt sand-wave, |
| Or on the wealth of globèd peonies; |
| Or if thy mistress some rich anger shows, |
| Emprison her soft hand, and let rave, |
| And feed deep, deep upon her peerless eyes. |
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| She dwells with Beauty—Beauty that must die; |
| And Joy, whose hand is ever at his lips |
| Bidding adieu; and aching Pleasure nigh, |
| Turning to poison while the bee-mouth sips. |
| Ay, in the very temple of Delight |
| Veil'd Melancholy has her sovran shrine, |
| Though seen of none save him whose strenuous tongue |
| Can burst Joy's grape against his palate fine; |
| His soul shall taste the sadness of her might, |
| And be among her cloudy trophies hung. |
| Ode to Melancholy. |