“All I say is don’t go ahead with your eyes shut till you find before you know it that you’re landed in a case of, ‘Mother, I can’t live without him!’ For, Nell, it won’t do, you know it won’t.”
“My dearest girl, of course I know, but not half so well as he knows! Bless you, Hat, do you forget all Leslie told us about him and his affair? And do you forget my little affair? Do you suppose either of us wants to try again?”
“Indeed, I hope you will try again, both of you. But not together, Nell. I’ve got the man all picked out for you; you know perfectly I mean Tom Bewick. There’s the one for you, Nell. Big, healthy, kind. Good sense. Good temper. Your own kind of person, Nell, and not a queer bird from a menagerie. Don’t go and spoil everything by getting tangled up over here. You know as well 270as I do that Gerald Fane, take him just as a man, can’t hold a candle to Doctor Tom.”
“I’ve never thought of comparing them. I don’t see any use in doing it. Tom’s Tom and Gerald’s Gerald. So far as Gerald goes, you can set your heart at rest and bank on this: I know just as well as you do, and he knows just as well as I do, that we couldn’t pull in harness together any more than–just as you say, a fish and a bird. Neither of us is thinking of such a thing. But why mustn’t a fish and a bird have anything to say to each other? He might like the cut of her fins and she might fancy the color of his wings. They could sympathize together, couldn’t they, if nothing else?” Aurora’s eyebrows had with this tried to signify her entire capacity to take care of herself and her own business.
But not wishing to rouse any further uneasiness in her friend, she no more after that spoke frankly of Gerald whenever he came into her mind. And when she declined Estelle’s invitation to go with her to Mlle. Durand’s, where she would hear the pupils of the latter recite Corneille and Racine, she did not tell her what she had planned to do instead, fully intending, however, to reveal it later.
Gerald meanwhile did not flatter himself imagining Aurora unhappy because he stayed away longer than had lately been quite usual. Time dragged with him, but the calendar told him that just so many days, no more, had passed. He pictured her going her cheerful gait, occasionally saying, perhaps, “I wonder what has become of Stickly-prickly?”
He had not gone to the mid-Lent entertainment as a matter of course. Aurora had shown small knowledge 271of him when she thought he would consent to see her disport herself before the public as a negress. On the day after, when he learned that she had been the star of the evening as a negro, his frenzied disgust itself warned him of the injustice, the impropriety, of exhibiting it to her. He chose to remain away until it should have sufficiently worn down to be governable. By that time the poor man had developed an illness, that cold of which for some weeks he had been carrying around in his bones the premonition.
With reddened eyelids and thickened nose, a sore throat and a cough, he felt himself no fit object for a lady’s sight. He stayed in to take care of himself.
Giovanna knew what to do for her signorino when he was raffreddato. She built a little fire in the studio; she brought his light meals to him in his arm-chair before it. She administered remedies. His bed was warmed at night by her scaldino. Gaetano was sent to Vieusseux’s for an armful of books. All day Gerald sat by the fire and read, and sometimes dozed and dreamed, and read again. And days passed, while his cold held on.