“Always standing on my guard,
And watching unto prayer.”
Monday 9. I was much blest this day, and my desires after the blessing much quickened; thanks be to God. In the evening we went to chapel, Mr. M—— preached from Luke vi. 19. He is but a young preacher, yet I like him much better than many others, and some parts of the sermon were blest to me.
Wednesday 11. At night while I was meeting in class, my soul was much refreshed, and I thought I would not give up that spark, small as it was, for all the world’s riches. And if the foretaste be so sweet, O what must the full enjoyment be? Lord as thou hast given me this desire, O fulfil it! Let me never rest, till I am made a joyful partaker of the inheritance of the saints in light.
Thursday 12. Blessed be God my soul was much alive this day also, and I was much quickened under my uncle’s preaching in the evening.
Sunday 15. This morning Mr. M——s made an exceeding fine discourse upon Philippians iii. 7. But what things were gain to me, those I counted loss for Christ. My soul was much comforted and encouraged, while he was inviting sinners to come and taste the sweetness that is in Christ, and to forsake all those things, which before we counted gain, in order to partake of those hidden treasures.
Monday 17. I was overcome by a trifling spirit, and also gave way to wandering thoughts: for which the Lord in mercy gave me to feel much remorse. While I was at preaching in the evening, He also gave me a fervent desire to look to that Jesus whom his servant was pointing out to us from John iii. 14, 15. O that I may ever look to him, to heal the wound which sin has made!
“Stung by the scorpion sin;
My poor expiring soul,”
O that I could add