“So it would for ever be.”
One day, when her sufferings were great, she said, “How sweet are the words of the Apostle, The sufferings of this life are not worthy to be compared with the glory that shall follow.” And on the 11th of November she mentioned the divine aid she found in these words, “Call upon me in the time of trouble; so will I hear thee, and thou shalt glorify me:” these were words she frequently mentioned, and sometimes would add, “Yes, my Lord, I will call upon thee; and I shall glorify thee too.”
Another time she said, with peculiar energy, “They that trust in the Lord, shall never be confounded.” And one day, after naming some sentences which she felt a spring of pleasure in, she added, with much animation in her countenance, “And that given so many years ago now comes with fresh power, Thou shalt walk with me in white: and when I answered, how can that be, seeing I am not worthy? it was repeated, but thou shalt walk with me in white, for will make thee worthy; I will thoroughly purge away thy dross, and take away thy tin; everlasting life is won, glory is on earth begun.” [34]
One night she spake of finding a powerful application of these words, “I will trust, and will not be afraid, for the Lord Jehovah is my strength and my song; he also is become my salvation.”
On the 18th of November, with much animation she often repeated, “I am thine, and thou art mine, a bond eternal hath us joined!” On the 20th, she said, “Just as I was waking, after my first sleep last night, I felt these words come so powerfully, Sufficient is his arm alone, and our defence is sure:—I instantly answered, our, what my friend and me? it then seemed spoken again with still greater weight, Sufficient is his arm alone, and our defence is sure. This (continued she) was at the beginning of the night, and a suffering night it has been; but a night in which I have seen the pleasure of the Lord, and felt his goodness rest upon me.”
Indeed, the goodness of the Lord, and the great things that faith will do, were subjects on which she delighted to dwell. I have often heard her say, “The particular commission the Lord had given her, was to encourage souls to believe:” and herein she was greatly blessed to many.
On the 23d, she many times repeated these words, which she said came to her with unusual sweetness in the night,
My Saviour and King,
Thy succour afford,
Thy righteousness bring;
Thy righteousness wearing, and cleans’d by thy blood,
Bold shall I appear in the presence of God.
All this day she had a great degree of fever upon her, and would sometimes say to me, “What were the sweet words the Lord gave me last night?” As soon as I pronounced the first words, “My Saviour,” she would go on with them, and add, “I feel the power of them, though my head was so confused, with this fever, that I could not recollect them.”
She was always exceedingly affectionate to me; and as it pleased God through her means, to kindle the first spark of spiritual life in my soul, I ought also to say, that nothing has ever been wanting on her part to increase the kindled fire, on the contrary, she was always a helper of my faith, as well as the most indulgent friend: numberless are the times she has expressed her strong attachment to, and great affection for, me. Never was any thing more expressive, than, on the 6th of December, while looking on me with a look of the tenderest affection, she said, “My faithful friend, my dearest friend, ten thousand blessings on her head.” Several other times, especially in the last week of her life, with eyes and hands lifted up to heaven, she would exclaim, “What shall I do for my friend?” She has for years been in the habit of repeating the following verse;